So, it’s been a month since I’ve made the commitment to stay in Australia for 2 years, and I’ve already been learning so much! A few weeks ago, I read this book called “With” by Skye Jethani, and felt like it was really relevant for this new season I’m stepping into, so I decided to write a poem about it in hopes to encourage anyone else stepping into a new season of life.
Trust is a process. Finding a place to belong takes time. But when we choose life with God and we start to trust the process of His plan – Bam! – Trust becomes easier!
Battles are not won alone or with anyone, but with God. That’s why we live for His fame and die for our gain; Because we trust that HE knows best. So we ignore the haters and continue to live life with Him!
Living life WITH God is the key to living life to our fullest potential!
Thanks for reading! I hope this inspired you to live life to your fullest potential in this new season with the One who gives you all your gifts & abilities because that’s the way to find true joy in new seasons of life!
The balance of life Will inevitably tip If we take God off centre
Life becomes a game A balancing act Of keeping God centered
It’s a confusing game We think it’s difficult But it doesn’t even take much effort
Life with God At the centre Is the simplest life
It’s the easiest And best Way to live
When the balance Is even & steady Life feels perfect
Keeping it that way Might take effort And feel difficult But… The centering game Is the most rewarding Gift from God
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you to keep God at the centre of your life because where He is at the centre, He will do amazing things in & with your life! Click the picture below to listen to an inspiring song about keeping Him at the centre!
Sitting here Thinking Spinning around In this chair At this desk My desk? Writing These words On paper To process life Typing Something random To look busy Doing homework Feeling Weird and confused Asking So many questions About the future God, how did I get here? Waiting For an answer In the meantime I continue To sit here At this desk Learning To be professional
Thanks for reading! That poem was inspired by my current “job” here in Australia. It’s kind of a long story about how I got here, so to keep it short, click this link to learn about what I’m currently doing here. And, click this link to learn more about what I’ve been doing here for the past 7 months!
Just a random Saturday in winter Here in Australia With So many visions So many dreams So many plans Just chasing God With my life And so far He has never Let me down And Here I am Just sitting here In His presence In the comfort In the love In the protection Of my Father
He has Always been Holding me Protecting me Fighting battles All so I would Never worry
I know a God That worries for me He takes my burdens And frees me from EVERYTHING And – He gives me A Saturday filled With His love
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that God is always with you (even on a random Saturday in a foreign city in a random cafe). He is everywhere, ready to protect & comfort you!
Through all the loneliness, remember that God remains the same through it all. He is always there within reach inviting you into His house. He wants you to join His family more than anything because He loves you!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that through your loneliness:
So, a few days ago, I had this revelation about home. I was feeling sad, and I couldn’t figure out why because I didn’t really feel homesick, but I couldn’t put it into words. Until I came up with the word “peoplesick”. You see, I’ve been living in a dorm with 11 other girls for the past 6 months, and these people have truly become like family, and I have felt comfort (like you would at home) with them. I moved to Australia 6 months ago without knowing anyone, and at first I didn’t know how to feel about living in a 12 girl dorm. But, a few months later, I realized that these girls had become my home here in Australia. But, here’s where the “peoplesick” part comes in.. A few weeks ago, our school graduated, and everyone had to go back home. And, that took away all the comforts I had built here in Australia (yes, I am still here). I’m still living in the same place, but I am starting a new school, with different people. And, I kept feeling homesick (even though I’m in the same place). And, that’s when I came up with “peoplesick” because even though I am still living in the same place, all the people I have come to trust and find comfort in have gone home, and I am left with this empty feeling. So, here’s a poem I wrote to describe this empty feeling:
Hello again Trust issues Welcome back
People come People go That’s life
It’s difficult To restart Every time
But occasionally With time People stay
Good things Take time And effort
Never let Some people Steal joy
Always continue Building trust With them
Those people Will stay Through everything
They will Be there Breaking walls
“People sick” Equals progress And growth
Continue growing And building With them
People leave People stay God remains
Thanks for reading! I hope this post helped you realize that sometimes homesickness isn’t missing a place, but rather missing the people that gave you comfort and love. And, when you feel “peoplesick”, it’s actually a good sign because it means that those people have made an impact on you, and they will probably be in your heart & ife for a while.
So, I’ve recently gone through a pretty testing season of life. And, I’ve learned that the only way to win battles is to fight them the right way.
But, before I go into the details, here’s a poem I wrote during this past season:
Dear God, I’m done I’m giving up I can’t carry this anymore I have nothing left The world couldn’t fill What I’m searching for But I still can’t Seem to find it Dear God, Help me Fight this battle Take this weight From my shoulders It’s killing me I’m done with the world I’m done searching Show me your truth Reveal your glory to me Dear God, Please Don’t make me wait Forgive me Restore me in your love Fill me with peace Show me your grace Help me see you Be my answer Dear God, I’m done searching For temporary answers In the world Because You are the answer I’ve been looking for This whole time You were there Waiting for me To find you Dear God, Thank you For waiting For me To come And find you In the midst Of the chaos You are And will always Be near
You see, I used to get really anxious in uncomfortable situations. And, I mean, REALLY anxious; I would bite my nails A LOT, and start to shut down to the people around me. I still currently have no nails while typing this, but they’re growing back, slowly (just like my relationships with some people)… Anyways, this past season or my life (the past 6 months) have been teaching me a lot about how to fight my battles in a positive, and productive way.
I’ve learned that fighting my battles is impossible alone; my own strength is not enough (that causes me to bite my nails a lot), and even when people help me, they can’t fully win the battle (especially spiritual battles). The only way I can truly win all my battles is by fighting them with God. He is the ultimate protector in my battles, and He gives me everything I need to win all my battles. And,this song has been an amazing reminder, and encourager for me, so I hope it inspires you as well.
Thanks for reading! I hope this post was insightful and encouraging to your soul; and that it filled your spirit with a new sense of hope for your battles.
So, it’s my birthday today (23! Woohoo!), and I’m currently in New South Wales, Australia! The past 6 months have been pretty crazy, and instead of repeating it all here, here’s a link to a page where you can read all my past posts from my experiences here in Australia from the past 6 months (and counting).
Anyways, this post is a poem I wrote about a word that has come to mean a lot to me. I never really knew what it meant before, but I have started to really understand it, and take it seriously during the past 6 months. So, here it is:
A B I D E
Abide One word Many meanings Multiple actions
Dwell One word One meaning One action
To abide Means to obey To dwell Means to stay
Abiding Results in abundance Dwelling Results in stillness
Act in accordance Receive abundance Act in stillness Receive scarcity
R E M A I N
Whether it’s an abiding faith, an abiding respect, or an abiding passion; the Word remains the same. The meaning might change based on the reason, but the Word remains the same. The action taken could be different based on the situation, but the Word still remains the same. The Word will always remain the same. And, when we choose to abide in the living Word, everything changes, except the Word.
Thanks for reading! I hope this encouraged you to think about the truths that are surrounding you everyday!
A child for life Living in His presence Because He always treats His children well And takes care of them everyday
No need to grow up Just be in awe of Him everyday Stay curious Have a joy like a child Depend on Him Never try to understand all things
That’s His job As Abba Father
He is: More real than the ground we stand on, & the air we breathe. He is: Closer than the skin on our bones, the songs we sing, & the thoughts in our minds. He: Welcomes home the prodigal, Leaves the 99, And, chases after His children!
And, He does it all for love because He is the perfect Abba Father!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminds you that you are so loved and you matter so much to the one person that truly cares!
Ouch that hurt that was triggering that made me feel sad But… then again you have no idea how much pain I feel Because… it’s concealed hidden away pushed deep down out of sight out of reach no one can know about this pain inside me But… only one has an idea only God knows
You have no idea
And you never will even if I explain myself and tell you my life story you will never truly understand what I battle with on the inside everyday without fail it’s always there a constant battle
You have no idea
I live I laugh I smile I joke I act like it’s all okay But… deep down it’s not at all I want to die some days I have no more strength to fight another day But… somehow I find it God gives it to me enough strength to make it through another day
And that’s why You have no idea
I started this battle alone, and I will continue to fight it alone with God because:
I went on this journey of comparison, hating myself, not seeing or feeling God’s love, feeling defeated, and unworthy.
But, when I finally realized how much God truly loves me, and cares for me (Matthew 6:26-34);
I started to see the world through His eyes, the beauty around me in nature helped me realize how much God loves His creations. And, if He loves the trees, & animals; How much more could He love me?
And, when I discovered that God loves me more than the trees He created, I truly understood His amazing love for me!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that God is always with you, & He cares for all His creations equally (your past does not & will never change His love for you).
A moment to remember who God is & who I am A moment of total surrender A moment of ultimate love A moment of perfect peace A moment of complete freedom A moment of finding hope A moment of unfailing grace A moment of uplifting truth
Love Peace Freedom Hope Grace Truth And the ultimate hiding place The one I kneel at the feet of The one that caries me through everything
His child His human vessel Dwelling in His house Called to do great things Spreading His glory Living my best life with Him
Through it all He continues to love To encourage To reveal To redeem To forgive To restart This amazing journey with me
If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months, check out this post before reading the following story.
Running Chasing Catching Finding Discovering Learning Building Working Crying Smiling Laughing Hiding Hurting Thinking Talking Processing Praying
Popping Breaking Destroying Tearing Shattering
This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles:
You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School), I used to have these bubbles. They were safe places where I could go to hide, where I could go to just feel safe, and where I could go to get away from everything. And, I was content in my own little world surrounded by these bubbles. Or, so I thought…
“Please don’t pop my bubbles!”
I felt content with my bubbles because they gave me a sense of safety. I liked looking at their beauty because they made me feel loved. I enjoyed their peacefulness because they made me feel comforable.
But, these bubbles would also really hurt me. I wouldn’t be able to let people get too close because they would pop them. Letting people get close enough to pop them seemed like a good and productive idea, but it never was because they never knew which bubbles to pop at the right time. They just wanted to pop them all right away before I was ready, which led to me being hurt often.
“Some people have no self-control with bubbles.”
So, during the past 4 months, I’ve been slowly learning that I am the one that gets to decide when I’m ready to pop a bubble. When I know I’m ready to pop a bubble, that’s when I can let others in to help and encourage me in the process. I’ve learned that I can’t just let people get close enough and expect them to not pop any bubbles. So, I need to know when the right time for me is to let people get close enough to avoid being hurt by them choosing which bubbbles to pop in their timing.
“Stop! That’s too much, too fast; slow down please!”
So, I’ve learned that in order to let people get close enough, I need to start popping these bubbles on my own (with help & support) because it’s the only way I will feel ready to pop each bubble. I’ve discovered that only when I’m truly ready to pop a bubble / get rid of something will I feel complete freedom from it.
“It won’t hurt if you’re ready.”
Sometimes I might think I’m not ready, but that’s when I learn how much power fear has in my decisions. Sometimes it takes others to encourage the popping of bubbles.
Freedom won’t be comfortable at first; it takes courage to allow hurt to enter our lives. But, when we start seeing the process of popping bubbles as an exciting and joyful time, we forget about the hurt because we start to see our life in a new, clear way; without the distraction of bubbles.
“Freedom is right in from of you! But, will you choose it?”
Freedom is an interesting concept because they say it’s freely given to you, and you can take it when you want. But, they fail to mention how much it hurts to actually receive it because it costs’ your total comfort. But, that’s when you have to ask yourself:
“Is freedom worth your comfort?”
Well, during the past 4 months, I’ve learned that my answer is definitely YES. I’ve decided that I am fully willing to step out of my comfort zone to gain freedom because it’s so worth it, and at the end of the day I can’t hold onto them forever anyway. I’ve realized that if giving-up my self-made comforts is all I need to do to receive true freedom then, I am willing to pop any bubbles that stop me from receiving this amazing freedom.
And, that’s my story from the past 4 months.
Thanks for reading! I hope this inpsired you to think about the things in your life that could be holding you back from receiving true freedom. If I’ve learned anything during this time, it’s that: TRUE FREEDOM IS WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR COMFORT!
P.S. Check out this page for more stories about my adventures here in Australia! or Follow me on instagram to follow me on my next journey (details to come soon)!
When will this end? I’m tired of always fighting. Help!
Is anyone out there? I’m begging to be free. Help!
I feel like I’m:
Loosing myself Brewing in self hatred Swallowing with guilt Thinking too much Breaking everything I touch Talking down to myself Coping with the pain wrongly Trying to change myself Feeling like giving up Dwelling on my past Building my walls up higher Learning to trust no one
God, I’m drowing Deeper and deeper Will you release me from this spiral?
My thoughts & emotions Have taken over Can you get them back?
God, I need you And your amazing love Will you help me?
I’ve lost the will to fight I feel like giving up Will you free me from this pain?
God, I need you To remind me of your presence Can you show me your love?
With God, I feel like I’m:
Winning back myself Brewing in His love Swallowing with ease Thinking to gain wisdom Breaking down walls Talking about the truth Swearing to never go back Striving to be better Feeling His love Dwelling in His presence Building friendships Learning to trust again
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that you can always call out to God in difficult times, & He will always listen and help you because:
So, yes. I am still living & studying in Australia.
However, due to the current world pandemic, called Covid-19, I haven’t been able to explore much of Australia. So, I decided to make this video to show you what my home / school looks like here. Hope you enjoy! THE VIDEO
For more information about what I’m doing here, check out this link!
That girl in the picture Standing there Smilling through the pain Just living life
That girl in the picture She never could’ve Known or imagined What was coming
That girl in the picure Looking at the world Blind to the future She had no idea
That girl in the picture She couldn’t even Begin to prepare For this!
How could she know? How could she prepare? How could she see?
She didn’t have a map – Or a to-do list. She just needed time.
Time is the key Everything unfolds so quickly
Time to remember & forget And, process it all
That girl in the picture Wasn’t ready for this
So, give her time!
Thanks for reading! I hope this poem inspired you to slow down & give yourself time to take a moment to enjoy life!
For the original picture: CLICK HERE! P.S. The featured picture on this post was the inspiration for this poem because when looking at it, I was reminded of who I was in that moment, & I realized how different I used to be. It reminded me to be kind to myself because we all need time to process through life.
You are unworthy You are alone You are never chosen You are ignored You are untalented You don’t belong You are hopeless You are stupid You are ugly You are weak You are not valuable You are nothing You are not important You are neglected You are hiding You are afraid You should give up You are a default You are a failure You don’t deserve anything You are an outcast You have no friends You are invisible You have no one You are unwanted You are worthless
But, God tells you that:
You are worthy You are valuable You are His beloved child You are unique You are kind You are chosen by the King You are talented You are filled with hope You are full of faith You are smart You are funny You are strong You are beautiful You are important You are everything to the Creator You are accepted You are brave You are bold You are His first choice You are deserving You are wanted You are popular You are worthy
And, most importantly, YOU ARE LOVED!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminds you of your true identity, and encourages you to live in truth & freedom!
P.S. If you’re curious & want to know more about what I’m learning/doing here in Australia, follow me on Instagram!
The lies are gone Truth has won I’ve been set free from doubts
Broken love has vanished Peace has won I’ve stopped running
Quitting has no place here Comfort has won I’ve found my home
Hiding places have disappeared Light has won I’ve started shinning
Thanks for reading! I hope this post encouraged you to come out of hiding because life really is so much better when you are free! Don’t hide who you are because it’s only hurting you; God is waiting for you to realize that you have been found! He is greater than all your fears; stop hiding & trust Him!