I’m not afraid of starting over because I know an amazing God that always forgives and always gives unlimited second chances.
I don’t fear the starting line because I know a perfect God that deserves all my fears, failures and future anxieties.
I have joy in new days because I know a joyful God that makes plans for all my days before me.
I’m not afraid to start again because I know a powerful God that protects me and moves mountains just for me.
I live freely in the chaos because I know a loving God that always protects comforts and loves me every day.
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that starting over doesn’t have to be a bad thing; sometimes it can lead to even greater things! It’s not always about starting over, sometimes it’s about starting again, and getting a fresh start!
Just a random Saturday in winter Here in Australia With So many visions So many dreams So many plans Just chasing God With my life And so far He has never Let me down And Here I am Just sitting here In His presence In the comfort In the love In the protection Of my Father
He has Always been Holding me Protecting me Fighting battles All so I would Never worry
I know a God That worries for me He takes my burdens And frees me from EVERYTHING And – He gives me A Saturday filled With His love
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that God is always with you (even on a random Saturday in a foreign city in a random cafe). He is everywhere, ready to protect & comfort you!
If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months, check out this post before reading the following story.
Running Chasing Catching Finding Discovering Learning Building Working Crying Smiling Laughing Hiding Hurting Thinking Talking Processing Praying
Popping Breaking Destroying Tearing Shattering
This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles:
You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School), I used to have these bubbles. They were safe places where I could go to hide, where I could go to just feel safe, and where I could go to get away from everything. And, I was content in my own little world surrounded by these bubbles. Or, so I thought…
“Please don’t pop my bubbles!”
I felt content with my bubbles because they gave me a sense of safety. I liked looking at their beauty because they made me feel loved. I enjoyed their peacefulness because they made me feel comforable.
But, these bubbles would also really hurt me. I wouldn’t be able to let people get too close because they would pop them. Letting people get close enough to pop them seemed like a good and productive idea, but it never was because they never knew which bubbles to pop at the right time. They just wanted to pop them all right away before I was ready, which led to me being hurt often.
“Some people have no self-control with bubbles.”
So, during the past 4 months, I’ve been slowly learning that I am the one that gets to decide when I’m ready to pop a bubble. When I know I’m ready to pop a bubble, that’s when I can let others in to help and encourage me in the process. I’ve learned that I can’t just let people get close enough and expect them to not pop any bubbles. So, I need to know when the right time for me is to let people get close enough to avoid being hurt by them choosing which bubbbles to pop in their timing.
“Stop! That’s too much, too fast; slow down please!”
So, I’ve learned that in order to let people get close enough, I need to start popping these bubbles on my own (with help & support) because it’s the only way I will feel ready to pop each bubble. I’ve discovered that only when I’m truly ready to pop a bubble / get rid of something will I feel complete freedom from it.
“It won’t hurt if you’re ready.”
Sometimes I might think I’m not ready, but that’s when I learn how much power fear has in my decisions. Sometimes it takes others to encourage the popping of bubbles.
Freedom won’t be comfortable at first; it takes courage to allow hurt to enter our lives. But, when we start seeing the process of popping bubbles as an exciting and joyful time, we forget about the hurt because we start to see our life in a new, clear way; without the distraction of bubbles.
“Freedom is right in from of you! But, will you choose it?”
Freedom is an interesting concept because they say it’s freely given to you, and you can take it when you want. But, they fail to mention how much it hurts to actually receive it because it costs’ your total comfort. But, that’s when you have to ask yourself:
“Is freedom worth your comfort?”
Well, during the past 4 months, I’ve learned that my answer is definitely YES. I’ve decided that I am fully willing to step out of my comfort zone to gain freedom because it’s so worth it, and at the end of the day I can’t hold onto them forever anyway. I’ve realized that if giving-up my self-made comforts is all I need to do to receive true freedom then, I am willing to pop any bubbles that stop me from receiving this amazing freedom.
And, that’s my story from the past 4 months.
Thanks for reading! I hope this inpsired you to think about the things in your life that could be holding you back from receiving true freedom. If I’ve learned anything during this time, it’s that: TRUE FREEDOM IS WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR COMFORT!
P.S. Check out this page for more stories about my adventures here in Australia! or Follow me on instagram to follow me on my next journey (details to come soon)!
When will this end? I’m tired of always fighting. Help!
Is anyone out there? I’m begging to be free. Help!
I feel like I’m:
Loosing myself Brewing in self hatred Swallowing with guilt Thinking too much Breaking everything I touch Talking down to myself Coping with the pain wrongly Trying to change myself Feeling like giving up Dwelling on my past Building my walls up higher Learning to trust no one
God, I’m drowing Deeper and deeper Will you release me from this spiral?
My thoughts & emotions Have taken over Can you get them back?
God, I need you And your amazing love Will you help me?
I’ve lost the will to fight I feel like giving up Will you free me from this pain?
God, I need you To remind me of your presence Can you show me your love?
With God, I feel like I’m:
Winning back myself Brewing in His love Swallowing with ease Thinking to gain wisdom Breaking down walls Talking about the truth Swearing to never go back Striving to be better Feeling His love Dwelling in His presence Building friendships Learning to trust again
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that you can always call out to God in difficult times, & He will always listen and help you because:
The lies are gone Truth has won I’ve been set free from doubts
Broken love has vanished Peace has won I’ve stopped running
Quitting has no place here Comfort has won I’ve found my home
Hiding places have disappeared Light has won I’ve started shinning
Thanks for reading! I hope this post encouraged you to come out of hiding because life really is so much better when you are free! Don’t hide who you are because it’s only hurting you; God is waiting for you to realize that you have been found! He is greater than all your fears; stop hiding & trust Him!
You can stay in hostels!
You can make friends everywhere possible!
But, that doesn’t change the fact that you need to be your best friend.
You will inevitably have alone time, so you will be alone with your thoughts, which means that you need to make sure they’re positive ones.
You need to be your best friend, which means telling yourself everything, and being completely honest with yourself, no matter what.
You need to call yourself out on things.
You need to congratulate yourself on a job well done.
You need to love yourself (through the good and the bad times).
Solo traveling can be really freeing, and relaxing, but you need to remember that you are solo traveling; you won’t have people to encourage you 24/7. You need to do that!
So, no matter how great, and exciting solo traveling is, remember that you need to be your best friend because you will inevitably end up exploring places alone. And, when that happens you will get feel alone, and abandoned, unless you’re your best friend.
So, when traveling abroad to a foreign country, you can make all the international friends you want (which I highly recommend!), but you still need to make sure that YOU are YOUR BEST FRIEND.
Thanks for reading!
I didn’t mean to make this post so direct (and a little depressing).
Solo traveling is truly amazing, but it only is freeing if you really are your own best friend (through the good & bad!).
So, if you are traveling to a foreign country, make sure that you are comfortable with being your own best friend.
YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO AFFORD TO DO EVERYTHING, BUT THAT’S OKAY!
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So, a few days ago, I went out with the expectation of doing a tour of a really tall, historical palace in Buenos Aires, and towards the end of the tour you get to go to the very top to get a full 360 view of the city. I was super excited for this adventure, to learn more history, and honestly, to get a good Instagram picture. But, when I arrived I learned that it was WAY out of my budget, and I really could not afford it (if I wanted to eat that week). So, with a saddened heart, I decided not spend that money (food is more important). But, also because budget traveling is all about planning your adventures, and choosing which ones are worthwhile, and which ones you could live without. And, sure, it wasn’t easy turning down this great adventure, but I quickly realized that I would be able to do and see so much more with that money. Saving that money will actually help me go to another country, so in the long run, it will be worth it because I’ll get to see another country, instead of a view of a city that I can walk around and explore.
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So, that’s my budget travel lesson for you. ~ You won’t be able to afford to do everything that looks fun and exciting, but that’s okay because you’re still be in another country. You can explore and learn about that country by exploring the streets and finding free tours. ~ Free; the budget travelers’ favorite word. Don’t get discouraged when you can’t afford to do something you really want to do. Just remember that you are still experiencing another culture, and that’s pretty amazing! So, just get out there and explore!
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Oh, and by the way, I might not have been able to afford that tour and amazing view, but a few days later, I found a great view of the city for literally 7 times cheaper. So, the real lesson here is to search for all your options.
Thanks for reading! I hope this helped you realize that budget traveling might not be glamorous, but it’s definitely worth it! You can still have an amazing experience and adventure in a foreign country on a budget! Don’t let that stop you from traveling abroad (you’ll learn more traveling on a budget than you would if you could afford all the fancy hotels)!
Thanks for reading my blog this past year! I wish you a Happy New Year! Cheers to an amazing new year ahead, full of new opportunities!Let’s accomplish our goals together; comment below with your goal(s) for 2019!