Can’t Carry This Anymore… (a letter series)

Dear God,I’m doneI’m giving upI can’t carry this anymoreI have nothing leftThe world couldn’t fillWhat I’m searching forBut I still can’tSeem to find it Dear God,Help meFight this battleTake this weightFrom my shouldersIt’s killing meI’m done with the worldI’m done searchingShow me your truthReveal your glory to me Dear God,PleaseDon’t make me waitForgive meRestore me…

Abba Father!

A child for lifeLiving in His presenceBecauseHe always treats His children wellAnd takes care of them everyday No need to grow upJust be in awe of Him everydayStay curiousHave a joy like a childDepend on HimNever try to understand all things That’s His jobAs Abba Father Because… He is:More real than the ground we stand…

You have no idea… (a poem)

Ouchthat hurtthat was triggeringthat made me feel sadBut…then againyou have no ideahow much pain I feelBecause…it’s concealedhidden awaypushed deep downout of sightout of reachno one can knowabout this paininside meBut…only one has an ideaonly God knows You have no idea And you never willeven if I explainmyselfand tell you mylife storyyou will nevertruly understandwhat I…

Lessons from the mountain top…

A moment to remember who God is & who I amA moment of total surrenderA moment of ultimate loveA moment of perfect peaceA moment of complete freedomA moment of finding hopeA moment of unfailing graceA moment of uplifting truth God is… LovePeaceFreedomHopeGraceTruthAnd the ultimate hiding placeThe one I kneel at the feet ofThe one that…

Finding Freedom by Popping Bubbles

If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months,check out this post before reading the following story. RunningChasingCatchingFindingDiscoveringLearningBuildingWorkingCryingSmilingLaughingHidingHurtingThinkingTalkingProcessingPraying But, ultimately PoppingBreakingDestroyingTearingShattering This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles: You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do…

The Mustard Seed…

The smallest seed In the whole gardenAnd even earth Don’t just haveA mustard seedSIzed faith You must beThe mustard seedTree, Be a tree It’s the smallest Of the seedsBut, it becomes, The tallest treeLoved by allA safe shadow for all Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that: It’s never just About faith The…

Spiral…

Can you hear me?I’m spiraling.Help! Where am I?I’m stuck in my thoughts.Help! When will this end?I’m tired of always fighting.Help! Is anyone out there?I’m begging to be free.Help! I feel like I’m: Loosing myselfBrewing in self hatredSwallowing with guiltThinking too muchBreaking everything I touchTalking down to myselfCoping with the pain wronglyTrying to change myselfFeeling like…

No More Hiding!

My time has comeHope has wonI’ve been found Fear is goneLove has wonI’ve been covered The lies are goneTruth has wonI’ve been set free from doubts Broken love has vanishedPeace has wonI’ve stopped running Quitting has no place hereComfort has wonI’ve found my home Hiding places have disappeared Light has wonI’ve started shinning Thanks for…

ABC’S of Love…

A acceptanceauthorityabundantaffectionBbelongingCcharacterconfidencecommunicationDdignitydoingEendlessFfamiliarfeelingfreedomGgivingHhopehealinghearthelpIidentityintimateJjustjoyKknowingknowledgeLlearningMmoralityNnewniceneededOopenPpeaceperfectpresenceprotectionprovisionperformancepresencepowerfulQquietqualityqualifying RrespectresponsibilitiesSsafetysecurityTtakingtrustUunderstandingunconditionalVvaluevulnerableWwholeworthX*(comment below if you know a loving word that starts with X)Y*(comment below if you know a loving word that starts with Y)Z*(comment below if you know a loving word that starts with Z) It’s an alphabet-long process, but when you find your true identity & worth, you will be able to receive…

Now, what?

Now, we learn to become a missionary! We learn to turn those sacrifices into choices. We stop feeling lonely & start making friends. We replace fatigue with excitement. We let go of anxiety & find peace. We don’t feel defeated, just courage to win. We stop doubting & learn to trust. We always know everything…

Here I Am!

I am alive!I am anxious!I am beautiful!I am blessed!I am changed!I am cleansed!I am changing!I am daring!I am excited!I am exploring!I am experiencing!I am filled!I am following!I am failing!I am growing!I am helping!I am imperfect!I am joyful!I am kind!I am loved!I am learning!I am living!I am leading!I am listening!I am marvelled!I am motivated!I am nervous!I…

Fitting In!

You try & try, over & over again, to fit in with the world. You think you’ll be happy when everyone likes you. You just want to feel part of something! All you want is to feel wanted. You want to feel happy & loved. So, you try & try, over & over again to…

Dearly Beloved,

A letter of inspiration for those struggling to see their purpose. I believe in you. Don’t be so hard on yourself.Everyone fails.You are meant to fail, and know that I will always be there to catch you. I will ALWAYS be there; whether you try your best not to fail, or you fail everyday. I…

The Endless Cycle of Constant Failure

I keep failingYet you forgive meOver and over again I keep strayingYet you look after meEveryday I forget about youYet you never forget meNever I try to do it on my ownYet you still look after meNo matter what I do I try to hide my shameYet you show me itAnd you forgive me right…

Solo Travel Tip #2

Be your best friend! You can stay in hostels! You can make friends everywhere possible! But, that doesn’t change the fact that you need to be your best friend. You will inevitably have alone time, so you will be alone with your thoughts, which means that you need to make sure they’re positive ones. You…

200

Wow! I can’t believe I’ve reached 200 posts! That’s crazy! I can’t believe I wrote all that! I used to hate writing! But, clearly I don’t anymore! I actually enjoy it! And, I look forward to writing a new post! I can’t believe how much has happened in my life through the past 200 posts!…

The Real Neat Blog Award!

I love the wordpress blogging community! When I started this blog, I wasn’t sure what I was getting into. But now, I love writing, and I love the community that comes with it. I also didn’t realize people would actually read my blog, let alone like it enough to nominate me for awards (I know…

Happy Valentine’s Day! <3

So, this is my first post in February, which makes me kinda sad (I really wanted to post more) and I don’t have an excuse for not posting (I did post a lot last months, but this month has just flown by). I promise, I have more posts coming soon (I’ve been doing a lot…

Hide n’ Seek

Where are you? Come out, come out wherever you are. Where did you go? What are you doing? Just show me your self. How can I find you? Why did you leave? I can’t find you anywhere. What do I do? Are you still there? I feel so alone without you. Can you please come…

Influence…

“The capacity to have an effect on the character, development, or behavior of someone or something, or the effect itself.“ . . . INFLUENCE. …such a big, complicated word that many people don’t like to use because they don’t really understand it. And, I know this is true because I googled it, and the following…

MAKE A DIFFERENCE TODAY! 😊

Let’s show people that they CAN make a difference! No matter their situation. They have the ability to do something to change their life! YOU have the ability to change your life, while also helping something realize their full potential. That’s what we should strive for in life! To help people realize their full potential!…

One sky…

The sky… The clouds… The sun… Everything up there… Just take a second, Go outside, And look up! Looking up, At the sky, Always makes me feel happy, And rejuvenated. Seeing planes, birds, jets… It all gives me hope! That there’s so much more out there – And, I want to explore it all! I…