“Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying: Who should I send? Who will go for Us? And, I said: Here I am. Send me.”
I show up; everyday for You! I am here for You! I am ready to be used by You!
But now, I realize that, it’s not enough, to just show up, because You have so much more on offer for me. You want so much more than just my yes.
You want me to show up. And, you want to be there for me everyday too! To live life WITH me! To give me hope and purpose in my yes to You.
When I show up everyday to live life with You I notice that something is different. You want to be my Father and friend. To love me. To laugh with me. To cry with me. And, just simply be there for me.
So now, instead of me, always saying: “I’m here for You.” I will know that when I say it You are echoing it right back to me, with so much love.
“I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you.”
I used to only read the top quote, and I believed that’s all it took to say: “I believe; I’m a christian.”. But, lately I’ve been learning more about the meaning behind the second quote, and realized that God wants to live life fully WITH us. And, when we realize that He wants more than just our yes; He wants our lives; that’s when we can truly start living out our true purpose!
Thanks for reading! P.S. Here’sa songthat inspired this poem!
Forget performance. Such a beautiful concept of true love from God!
It’s so amazing to fully experience this simplicity.
How can it be real to display hope, care, and trust with one simple word?
The simplest form of true vulnerability in one simple word.
Just one simple word is all it takes to display His deepest nature.
That’s the simple form of this true love that remains uncomplicated.
Don’t overthink it. Childlike simplicity. That is all it takes.
This poem was inspired by events from my past week at a camp I volunteered at…
Quick backstory: This camp I’m referring to is for children in the foster care system / from broken homes. It’s a week for these kids to come as they are, where they can forget their worries / tough lives, and just have fun, while experiencing and being surrounded by this true Love. So, while getting ready to go to this camp, I was advised to remain strong because these kids could be violent / rude / closed-off from others (especially authority figures). So, I started the first day with this expectation that I would get hit or yelled at by children (maybe a little harsh; but I had no idea what to expect). And, although that did happened a few times (it happened a lot less than I was expecting), I actually started to see so much love in these kids. And, I quickly realized that if I operated out of fear / uncertainty around these kids, they could sense it, and wouldn’t be able to fully trust me. So, as soon as I just simply started operating with God’s love, I started seeing so much love in these kids. A love that was there all along, but was hiding behind brokenness and fear.
And, in that moment, when I saw so much simple love come out of such little people, with so much brokenness and fear, I fully experienced Love in it’s simplest form. I truly realized that, if these kids (with all they’ve been through) can still have so much love to give; then how much more can I give?
Thanks for reading!
Alternate title : “Love Uncomplicated” inspired by this song
Oh, how I love you! How I love waking you up in the morning. How I love tucking you in at night. You’re my most prized creation. You will always be enough for me. You never have to earn my love. My grace is enough for you. You are always perfect in my eyes. Your identity is in Me, and it will always remain pure. “I will pick you up, and point you in the right direction, knowing full well that you’ll never reach perfection. And, when you wonder to yourself, “will I ever be enough?”, Just know, you’ve already been given My authentic love!” (“Authentic Love by Ryan Drendel”) I will always be here, providing, caring, and protecting, ready for you to run into my arms.
Thanks for reading! I hope this letter and these songs speak to you, and help you discover, and experience this true, authentic love that can change your life, and fill you with so much purpose!
P.S. Here’s a song that really helped me experience & accept this true, authentic love:
To go back To the moment Where it was simple When trust was easy Oh, to get closer to that
To live A life of vulnerability In communion In the garden
To abide In your presence Everyday Where nothing Must be proven
To live In your love In daily communion In a life of vulnerability With you
That’s what I strive for Everyday To be vulnerable And live fully As myself With my best friend — My Abba Father
Thanks for reading! This poem was inspired by:
my word of the month: “vulnerability” – noun: vulnerability; plural noun: vulnerabilities – the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally. & this song!
good year bad year global pandemic globally traveling through it all He remains
“what if I gave it all?” this year “could I be a worthy sacrifice?” deserving of love
this year i’m leaving it all behind last year i learned so much i’m ready to sit at the table with you i want to partake in your communion
“with bread as your body” the bread of life “and wine as your blood” i will follow you
i was a sinner but He welcomed me i’ve entered the gates i’ve repented kneeling down i’ve discovered redemptive grace
so, this year
“come trial or blood because you, oh God you’re the one my heart loves”
it will always be you
Thanks for reading my first post of 2021! If you read this post to the end, and want even more encouragement for this new year, I highly recommend listening to the song that inspired this poem. Click the link!
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Find a mirror Take a selfie Look At your reflection My perfect child My beautiful creation Can’t you see The beauty within
In your eyes It’s so evident Look At your worth Use my eyes Look At your imperfections Through my eyes Look At the beauty That I see
Do you see it Can you see What I see Look I am perfect In your eyes But you still Can’t see it Look At my spirit Thriving within you I’ve made you So beautifully perfect As I wanted
When I Look At you I see Only beauty Immense perfection Total worth And I remember How much I love you
My love For you Comes with No strings attached It will Always remain Even when You don’t see it I will Look At you And See you My beautiful Perfect creation My love For you Comes with No strings attached
Now take a moment Look Find that mirror again Take a different selfie Look At your perfect reflection Through your creators’ eyes Now Do you see it
All your purpose Your endless worth The overwhelming love I give you Look All those things I’ve called you To great things
Do you see it yet? Look When you can’t love yourself I want to show you My amazing love for you For you to start and Look
At your self Through my eyes You will see Just how Worthy Perfect And Beautiful You truly are Look At what I created To do such great things Look At me At others And most importantly Look At yourself Through my eyes
Thanks for reading! I hope this poem inspired you to start looking at yourself & the world around you with the eyes of the creator of the universe!
P.S. The picture above has a pretty deep story behind it that I was going to share in this post, but then I decided to leave this poem as it is, and make another post about the story behind that picture (this is just a sneak peak into that story). Check back next week for the full story behind that picture!
I am sculpting strengthening growing your lungs making them perfect strong and bigger than ever because I need you to tell the world about me through your story
I am changing re-molding re-shaping your heart making it heavy and giving it the desires of my heart because I want you to follow my plan for you and love others as I love you
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that change is necessary for growth; but you can’t grow if you don’t embrace it! When you embrace change, that’s when amazing things start to happen in your life!
That’s just who He is That’s why We call Him Abba Father
He came Before us And He won’t Leave us
Nothing we do Could stop Him From loving us
That is just Who He is
. . .
We are Broken Hurt Sinful Lost Faithless Alone Hopeless
He helps us Become Like Him
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that when you feel lost, alone, and broken; you can always count on the One who goes before you, who never leaves you, and who always holds you; the One that welcomes you home everyday, gives you a life full of joy and purpose, and makes you full of love and passion for life and those around you.
I’m not afraid of starting over because I know an amazing God that always forgives and always gives unlimited second chances.
I don’t fear the starting line because I know a perfect God that deserves all my fears, failures and future anxieties.
I have joy in new days because I know a joyful God that makes plans for all my days before me.
I’m not afraid to start again because I know a powerful God that protects me and moves mountains just for me.
I live freely in the chaos because I know a loving God that always protects comforts and loves me every day.
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that starting over doesn’t have to be a bad thing; sometimes it can lead to even greater things! It’s not always about starting over, sometimes it’s about starting again, and getting a fresh start!
Just a random Saturday in winter Here in Australia With So many visions So many dreams So many plans Just chasing God With my life And so far He has never Let me down And Here I am Just sitting here In His presence In the comfort In the love In the protection Of my Father
He has Always been Holding me Protecting me Fighting battles All so I would Never worry
I know a God That worries for me He takes my burdens And frees me from EVERYTHING And – He gives me A Saturday filled With His love
Thanks for reading! I hope this post reminded you that God is always with you (even on a random Saturday in a foreign city in a random cafe). He is everywhere, ready to protect & comfort you!
Through all the loneliness, remember that God remains the same through it all. He is always there within reach inviting you into His house. He wants you to join His family more than anything because He loves you!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that through your loneliness:
So, a few days ago, I had this revelation about home. I was feeling sad, and I couldn’t figure out why because I didn’t really feel homesick, but I couldn’t put it into words. Until I came up with the word “peoplesick”. You see, I’ve been living in a dorm with 11 other girls for the past 6 months, and these people have truly become like family, and I have felt comfort (like you would at home) with them. I moved to Australia 6 months ago without knowing anyone, and at first I didn’t know how to feel about living in a 12 girl dorm. But, a few months later, I realized that these girls had become my home here in Australia. But, here’s where the “peoplesick” part comes in.. A few weeks ago, our school graduated, and everyone had to go back home. And, that took away all the comforts I had built here in Australia (yes, I am still here). I’m still living in the same place, but I am starting a new school, with different people. And, I kept feeling homesick (even though I’m in the same place). And, that’s when I came up with “peoplesick” because even though I am still living in the same place, all the people I have come to trust and find comfort in have gone home, and I am left with this empty feeling. So, here’s a poem I wrote to describe this empty feeling:
Hello again Trust issues Welcome back
People come People go That’s life
It’s difficult To restart Every time
But occasionally With time People stay
Good things Take time And effort
Never let Some people Steal joy
Always continue Building trust With them
Those people Will stay Through everything
They will Be there Breaking walls
“People sick” Equals progress And growth
Continue growing And building With them
People leave People stay God remains
Thanks for reading! I hope this post helped you realize that sometimes homesickness isn’t missing a place, but rather missing the people that gave you comfort and love. And, when you feel “peoplesick”, it’s actually a good sign because it means that those people have made an impact on you, and they will probably be in your heart & ife for a while.
A child for life Living in His presence Because He always treats His children well And takes care of them everyday
No need to grow up Just be in awe of Him everyday Stay curious Have a joy like a child Depend on Him Never try to understand all things
That’s His job As Abba Father
He is: More real than the ground we stand on, & the air we breathe. He is: Closer than the skin on our bones, the songs we sing, & the thoughts in our minds. He: Welcomes home the prodigal, Leaves the 99, And, chases after His children!
And, He does it all for love because He is the perfect Abba Father!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminds you that you are so loved and you matter so much to the one person that truly cares!
Ouch that hurt that was triggering that made me feel sad But… then again you have no idea how much pain I feel Because… it’s concealed hidden away pushed deep down out of sight out of reach no one can know about this pain inside me But… only one has an idea only God knows
You have no idea
And you never will even if I explain myself and tell you my life story you will never truly understand what I battle with on the inside everyday without fail it’s always there a constant battle
You have no idea
I live I laugh I smile I joke I act like it’s all okay But… deep down it’s not at all I want to die some days I have no more strength to fight another day But… somehow I find it God gives it to me enough strength to make it through another day
And that’s why You have no idea
I started this battle alone, and I will continue to fight it alone with God because:
I went on this journey of comparison, hating myself, not seeing or feeling God’s love, feeling defeated, and unworthy.
But, when I finally realized how much God truly loves me, and cares for me (Matthew 6:26-34);
I started to see the world through His eyes, the beauty around me in nature helped me realize how much God loves His creations. And, if He loves the trees, & animals; How much more could He love me?
And, when I discovered that God loves me more than the trees He created, I truly understood His amazing love for me!
Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that God is always with you, & He cares for all His creations equally (your past does not & will never change His love for you).
A moment to remember who God is & who I am A moment of total surrender A moment of ultimate love A moment of perfect peace A moment of complete freedom A moment of finding hope A moment of unfailing grace A moment of uplifting truth
Love Peace Freedom Hope Grace Truth And the ultimate hiding place The one I kneel at the feet of The one that caries me through everything
His child His human vessel Dwelling in His house Called to do great things Spreading His glory Living my best life with Him
Through it all He continues to love To encourage To reveal To redeem To forgive To restart This amazing journey with me
If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months, check out this post before reading the following story.
Running Chasing Catching Finding Discovering Learning Building Working Crying Smiling Laughing Hiding Hurting Thinking Talking Processing Praying
Popping Breaking Destroying Tearing Shattering
This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles:
You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School), I used to have these bubbles. They were safe places where I could go to hide, where I could go to just feel safe, and where I could go to get away from everything. And, I was content in my own little world surrounded by these bubbles. Or, so I thought…
“Please don’t pop my bubbles!”
I felt content with my bubbles because they gave me a sense of safety. I liked looking at their beauty because they made me feel loved. I enjoyed their peacefulness because they made me feel comforable.
But, these bubbles would also really hurt me. I wouldn’t be able to let people get too close because they would pop them. Letting people get close enough to pop them seemed like a good and productive idea, but it never was because they never knew which bubbles to pop at the right time. They just wanted to pop them all right away before I was ready, which led to me being hurt often.
“Some people have no self-control with bubbles.”
So, during the past 4 months, I’ve been slowly learning that I am the one that gets to decide when I’m ready to pop a bubble. When I know I’m ready to pop a bubble, that’s when I can let others in to help and encourage me in the process. I’ve learned that I can’t just let people get close enough and expect them to not pop any bubbles. So, I need to know when the right time for me is to let people get close enough to avoid being hurt by them choosing which bubbbles to pop in their timing.
“Stop! That’s too much, too fast; slow down please!”
So, I’ve learned that in order to let people get close enough, I need to start popping these bubbles on my own (with help & support) because it’s the only way I will feel ready to pop each bubble. I’ve discovered that only when I’m truly ready to pop a bubble / get rid of something will I feel complete freedom from it.
“It won’t hurt if you’re ready.”
Sometimes I might think I’m not ready, but that’s when I learn how much power fear has in my decisions. Sometimes it takes others to encourage the popping of bubbles.
Freedom won’t be comfortable at first; it takes courage to allow hurt to enter our lives. But, when we start seeing the process of popping bubbles as an exciting and joyful time, we forget about the hurt because we start to see our life in a new, clear way; without the distraction of bubbles.
“Freedom is right in from of you! But, will you choose it?”
Freedom is an interesting concept because they say it’s freely given to you, and you can take it when you want. But, they fail to mention how much it hurts to actually receive it because it costs’ your total comfort. But, that’s when you have to ask yourself:
“Is freedom worth your comfort?”
Well, during the past 4 months, I’ve learned that my answer is definitely YES. I’ve decided that I am fully willing to step out of my comfort zone to gain freedom because it’s so worth it, and at the end of the day I can’t hold onto them forever anyway. I’ve realized that if giving-up my self-made comforts is all I need to do to receive true freedom then, I am willing to pop any bubbles that stop me from receiving this amazing freedom.
And, that’s my story from the past 4 months.
Thanks for reading! I hope this inpsired you to think about the things in your life that could be holding you back from receiving true freedom. If I’ve learned anything during this time, it’s that: TRUE FREEDOM IS WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR COMFORT!
P.S. Check out this page for more stories about my adventures here in Australia! or Follow me on instagram to follow me on my next journey (details to come soon)!