Living Vulnerably

1 year ago…

To go back
To the moment
Where it was simple
When trust was easy
Oh, to get closer to that


Now…

To live
A life of vulnerability
In communion
In the garden

To abide
In your presence
Everyday
Where nothing
Must be proven

To live
In your love
In daily communion
In a life of vulnerability
With you

That’s what I strive for
Everyday
To be vulnerable
And live fully
As myself
With my best friend —
My Abba Father


Thanks for reading!
This poem was inspired by:

my word of the month:
“vulnerability” – noun: vulnerability; plural noun: vulnerabilities – the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.
&
this song!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

You have no idea… (a poem)

Ouch
that hurt
that was triggering
that made me feel sad
But…
then again
you have no idea
how much pain I feel
Because…
it’s concealed
hidden away
pushed deep down
out of sight
out of reach
no one can know
about this pain
inside me
But…
only one has an idea
only God knows

You have no idea

And you never will
even if I explain
myself
and tell you my
life story
you will never
truly understand
what I battle with
on the inside
everyday
without fail
it’s always there
a constant battle

You have no idea

I live
I laugh
I smile
I joke
I act like it’s all okay
But…
deep down
it’s not
at all
I want to die
some days
I have no more strength
to fight another day
But…
somehow I find it
God gives it to me
enough strength
to make it through
another day

And that’s why
You have no idea


I started this battle alone, and I will continue to fight it alone with God because:

I went on this journey of
comparison,
hating myself,
not seeing or feeling God’s love,
feeling defeated,
and unworthy.

But, when I finally realized
how much God truly loves me,
and cares for me (Matthew 6:26-34);

I started to see the world through His eyes,
the beauty around me in nature helped me
realize how much God loves His creations.
And, if He loves the trees, & animals;
How much more could He love me?

And, when I discovered that God loves me more than the trees He created,
I truly understood His amazing love for me!


Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that God is always with you, & He cares for all His creations equally (your past does not & will never change His love for you).

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Spiral…

“Sometimes on this journey,
I get lost in my own mistakes.
But, my story isn’t over,
my story’s just begun.”

Can you hear me?
I’m spiraling.
Help!

Where am I?
I’m stuck in my thoughts.
Help!

When will this end?
I’m tired of always fighting.
Help!

Is anyone out there?
I’m begging to be free.
Help!


I feel like I’m:

Loosing myself
Brewing in self hatred
Swallowing with guilt
Thinking too much
Breaking everything I touch
Talking down to myself
Coping with the pain wrongly
Trying to change myself
Feeling like giving up
Dwelling on my past
Building my walls up higher
Learning to trust no one


God, I’m drowing
Deeper and deeper
Will you release me from this spiral?

My thoughts & emotions
Have taken over
Can you get them back?

God, I need you
And your amazing love
Will you help me?

I’ve lost the will to fight
I feel like giving up
Will you free me from this pain?

God, I need you
To remind me of your presence
Can you show me your love?


With God, I feel like I’m:

Winning back myself
Brewing in His love
Swallowing with ease
Thinking to gain wisdom
Breaking down walls
Talking about the truth
Swearing to never go back
Striving to be better
Feeling His love
Dwelling in His presence
Building friendships
Learning to trust again


Thanks for reading!
I hope this reminded you that you can always call out to God in difficult times,
& He will always listen and help you because:

YOU NEVER HAVE TO DO ANYTHING ALONE!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Hide n’ Seek with Myself

Who am I?
What’s my talent?
Where do I belong?
When is it gonna be my time?
How will I find it?

All these questions
Remain unanswered
Leaving me lost
And confused
Searching for more

I can’t seem to see
Nothing gets better
I feel stuck
In this endless cycle
Of this identity crisis

All my life
I’ve searched
And tried to get out
But life always catches me
And I fall backwards

But I don’t give up
I continue
I press on
Moving forward
Must be better

. . .

Because I still believe
That my time
Is coming
So I hold on
To the Hope

I no longer fear
I am held
I have hope
I must be patient
I will make it

I will find me
I can’t hide forever
I must continue to seek
I will end
This game


Thanks for reading!
I hope this post inspired you to never stop searching because one day you will find yourself & everything will fall into perfect place.
This post was inspired by: I Still Believe

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

As I sit here…

Here I am, waiting…
Learning patience everyday!
I sit here and wait.

My day will come.
I just know it, so I wait.
Patience is a skill.

I’m perfecting it.
I get better and better –
Everyday, I wait.

I get discouraged.
But, I never stop learning.
There is a reason.

I don’t know it yet.
But, I will when it happens –
And, I will love it!

So, I patiently –
Wait for that; my best day –
It’s in front of me.

And, as I sit here…
I question, and learn a lot.
Preparing myself.

That day is coming.
It’s just around the corner.
So, I keep the faith.

And, as I sit here…
I start to pray about it, and –
I ask for patience…

…Until that day where –
All my dreams will come true, so –
I sit here and wait –

patiently…


Thanks for reading!

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-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Birthday Goals?

So, today’s a weird / crazy / awesome day…

. . .

Today is my birthday, and I don’t know how to feel because I try to do this thing every year; I try to spend my birthday in a new country every year, so I can remember that birthday, and that country.

But, for the past 2 years, I’ve spent my birthday in my home country.
And, it does make me a little sad because it was truly a goal of mine.
But, it’s also totally fine.

I think I’m kind of fine with it because another goal of mine is to eventually move to a new country for an ‘extended’ period of time (longer than my usual trips).
So, I think that’s what I realized in the past 2 years of having my birthday at home.
Soon I will accomplish that goal (of moving to a new country), and I’ll have multiple birthdays in other countries – I just have to be patient, and happy with where I am now.

Plans change a lot, and that’s okay because sometimes plans change, and something better ends up happening that could never have been planned.


Anyways, I know this was a short post, but I wrote it mostly as a reminder to myself:
To not always get so caught up in my plans for the future, or needing to achieve all my goals right away because I know I will get there eventually, and achieve all my goals and then some.


So, I hope if you read this until the end, you will also realize that you don’t need to get frustrated or discouraged if your plans change on your journey to achieving your dreams because it’s for the better,; something better is ahead.

life-goals
Your goal / dream is not too big! Sometimes you just need a different approach to achieve it!

Thanks for reading!
Have a great day, and continue to strive toward your goals no matter what life throws at you! You got this!

-LiveForAdventure! 😊

Apologies & Promises (A Letter)

*I’m writing this for Mother’s Day, but it can also work for Father’s Day.*
It can pretty much work for any day (i just recently got inspired).

Dear mom / dad (or anyone else),

   I just want to apologize for some things:

I’m sorry for ever letting you down.
I’m sorry for ever doubting you.
I’m sorry for ever being scared.
I’m sorry for ever letting fear & doubt take over.
I’m sorry for all the times I hurt you.
I’m sorry for all the times I failed when you believed in me.
I’m sorry for ever being inconsistent without valid reason.
I’m sorry for ever lying to you.
I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted.
I’m sorry for ever offending you.
I’m sorry for not always trusting you.
I’m sorry for ever giving up on you when things got tough.
I’m sorry for ever yelling at you.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting your love.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting your grace.
I’m sorry for ever tarnishing your faith in me.
I’m sorry for ever breaking your trust.
I’m sorry for ever walking away.
I’m sorry for ever not being good enough.
I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting you.
I’m sorry for not being the best child you could of asked for.
I’m sorry for ever…ything! – I am so sorry for everything!

   Now, I want to promise some things:

I promise to always trust & have faith in you.
I promise to never let you down again.
I promise to face all my fears.
I promise to be more consistent.
I promise to always tell you the truth.
I promise to never take you for granted anymore.
I promise to love you forever without conditions.
I promise to accept your amazing love & grace.
I promise to never walk away again.
I promise to try to be good enough.
I promise to not cause you anymore pain.
I promise to be the best child that I can be.
I promise to all those things from the bottom of my heart.
    One last promise: I promise to try my very best to keep all those promises because I, now, understand your unconditional love for me.

   So, all there is to say now is: Thank You!  
Thank you for always loving me, no matter what. I wouldn’t be who I am today without you. Thank you for never doing to me what I did to you. You are truly amazing. You are my role-model. You make me want to be the best version of myself.


Thanks for reading! 🙂

I hope this letter encouraged you because we all have things to apologize for (to someone), & we should all make more promises that we actually try to keep.
And, we all need to start saying; “Thank You” more often.
-If you can relate to anything above, comment below with the apology, promise or thank you that you would say to your mom or dad (or someone else).

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

P.S. This letter was originally intended to be: A Prayer to God, but while writing it, I realized that it can work for anyone because apologies, promises, & thank you’s are very underrated in today’s world & we need more of them.

¡Una publicación en español!

So, just a heads up: this is a short post…
Also, please don’t judge my Spanish. I’ve lived in Chile for 3 months, so I’ve learned a lot, but, I know, I still have lots to learn. But, I wanted to try to write a post in Spanish.
So, here it is:

. . .

¡Hola, buenas días!

He estado viviendo en Chile durante los últimos 3 meses, y he aprendido muchas cosas aquí durante los últimos 3 meses.
Tantas cosas que una publicación como esta no es suficiente para explicar todo.
Además, hay muchas cosas que no puedo explicar porque he hecho muchas cosas que solo puedes entender si también has viajado y has vivido en un otro país (algunas cosas son demasiado muy confusas para explicar).

Durante los último 3 meses, aprendí que viajar es una cosa que realmente me hace feliz. También, aprendí muchas cosas sobre mí y muchas cosas sobre Chile (un mundo muy diferente de mi país).
Aprendí que hay mucho mas cosas a explorar en el mundo y que voy a hacerlo porque no puedo dejar de viajar después de vivir en otro país.
Esta experiencia me hace querer explorar muchos más países.
Después de esta experiencia, quiero continuar aprendiendo español, seguir viajando y hacer una diferencia en el mundo (de cualquiera manera que puedo).

. . .

-¡Gracias por leer!
P.D. Si alguna vez consideras visitar Chile, no lo pienses más, ¡solo vete! ¡Lo recomiendo totalmente! ¡Es realmente un país muy hermoso!

-VivePorLaAdventura! 🙂


If you want to read about my experience living in Chile, check out this page: My Trip to Chile!🇨🇱

Thanks for reading (this probably poorly written post)!
I just wanted to try and write a blog post in Spanish while I’m still in Chile for myself to remember to continue to learn more Spanish (this is like a checkpoint in my Spanish learning).
And, I hope it encourages you to travel & try to learn a new language!

Hope For Your Future…

Let your hopes, not your hurts, shape your future.
-Robert H. Schuller

. . .

So, before I begin, I should start by saying that I don’t know the person who said that quote, but, when I read it, I immediately remembered one of the main reasons why I made the decision to live here, in Chile, for 3 months.

. . .

I knew that living here was going to be very different, and I would have to adapt to a lot of new things.
I also knew, from experience, that travel teaches amazing & valuable skills & knowledge and it helps with (mental, physical & spiritual) growth.
So, let’s just say that I wasn’t exactly terrified of this trip, and making this decision was pretty easy for me because I love traveling anyways. But, I still had some doubts in me about this decision (like, was it even the right one?). And, the only thing that kept me from letting doubt win was the excitement of travel, and knowing that I was doing something that would better myself and my future.
I knew deep down that this trip was going to shape me and my future in some amazing way, and I didn’t want to miss out on the opportunity to travel more, grow more and shape my future.

Traveling shapes us in a way we don’t realize,
until we come home & see what changed in our minds!

. . .

That quote is a good reminder to have faith in your future, and to not let today’s hurts and fears stop you from accomplishing your dreams.
It reminds you that, how you feel today does not define your future because if you keep hoping, praying and working, your dreams will become reality and you will be able to say that you accomplished your goals.
It reminds you that even though traveling has tough moments (culture shock, fear of flying, fear of the unknown, etc.), it’s all worth it in the end because you’re working towards creating a better you and a great future for your better self. And, in that future, culture shock, flying & fear of the unknown will not be as foreign to you.
You might even, actually, start to love those aspects of traveling (I know, I definitely have).

Hurts only last for a period in time!
But,
Hopes can lasts forever (as long as you never lose your hope)!

So, whatever it is that’s stopping you from doing something amazing, put it aside and let your hope and faith in your future guide your decision because being hopeful is much better than being fearful.

Thanks for reading!
I hope this post inspired you to go out & live your dreams because you should never let your hope fade & your hurts win!

Kill the hurts & fears by letting your hopes & dreams shape your future!


-LiveForAdventure! 🙂