Growing Pains…

Painful
hurt
surfaces

Broken
pieces
fall

Brick
walls
crumble

Soft
hearts
shatter

Deep
tears
fade

Growth
is
happening


Sometimes growth is painful, and difficult.. but, that’s how we know we are growing properly!
Growing pain is the result of muscles being stretched and pulled in new and different ways;
and when we realize how good it is, we can start to want this beautiful pain because
it is making us stronger and better!


Thanks for reading!
I hope this encourages you to keep stretching and growing these new muscles because you are changing, and that’s a beautiful thing!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Simpler Times…

click the picture to listen to the song
that inspired the following post

wishing
dreaming
hoping
for
simpler times
to come back
when everything
was so much better
can we rewind
to those times
the memories are fading
I can’t remember
what it used to be like
I just wanna go back
to those moments
where no cares were had
and no pain was felt
the moments when everything
seemed perfect
what happened to that perfection
to that bliss
where did those moments go
when did the pain get real
when did this chaos begin
where did time go
what happened to the laughter
why did everyone leave
my heart aches
for simpler times

times
when
jumping
in a
pile
of
leaves
was the
highlight
of my
day

I miss the days
when I had no worries
and no doubts
when life was simpler
and happier
those simpler times
are just a distant
memory now
that I can’t get back
no matter what
those days
are gone

I guess
I just gotta embrace
the now
the times today
simple or not
this is the present
let’s make it a gift
live in the moment
hopeless or hopeful
these times are all I have
now is the time
to embrace this moment


embrace the now
miss the simpler times
that’s just life
it goes on
miss the simpler times
but keep moving
forward to better things
remaining hopeful
for better times


Thanks for reading! I hope this inspired you to remember the simpler times behind you, and to keep looking forward to create more good times.
Let’s go into 2021 with hopeful eyes, and big dreams that we can’t wait to conquer this new year!

M E R R Y C H R I S T M A S & H A P P Y N E W Y E A R !

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

A message of hope for the lonely

Loneliness
Comes and goes
But
God remains

Pain
Becomes a trigger
But
God remains

Happiness
Feels out of reach
But
God remains

Belonging
Seems impossible
But
God remains


Through all the loneliness, remember that God remains the same through it all. He is always there within reach inviting you into His house. He wants you to join His family more than anything because He loves you!


Thanks for reading!
I hope this reminded you that through your loneliness:

God always remains!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

You have no idea… (a poem)

Ouch
that hurt
that was triggering
that made me feel sad
But…
then again
you have no idea
how much pain I feel
Because…
it’s concealed
hidden away
pushed deep down
out of sight
out of reach
no one can know
about this pain
inside me
But…
only one has an idea
only God knows

You have no idea

And you never will
even if I explain
myself
and tell you my
life story
you will never
truly understand
what I battle with
on the inside
everyday
without fail
it’s always there
a constant battle

You have no idea

I live
I laugh
I smile
I joke
I act like it’s all okay
But…
deep down
it’s not
at all
I want to die
some days
I have no more strength
to fight another day
But…
somehow I find it
God gives it to me
enough strength
to make it through
another day

And that’s why
You have no idea


I started this battle alone, and I will continue to fight it alone with God because:

I went on this journey of
comparison,
hating myself,
not seeing or feeling God’s love,
feeling defeated,
and unworthy.

But, when I finally realized
how much God truly loves me,
and cares for me (Matthew 6:26-34);

I started to see the world through His eyes,
the beauty around me in nature helped me
realize how much God loves His creations.
And, if He loves the trees, & animals;
How much more could He love me?

And, when I discovered that God loves me more than the trees He created,
I truly understood His amazing love for me!


Thanks for reading! I hope this reminded you that God is always with you, & He cares for all His creations equally (your past does not & will never change His love for you).

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Spiral…

“Sometimes on this journey,
I get lost in my own mistakes.
But, my story isn’t over,
my story’s just begun.”

Can you hear me?
I’m spiraling.
Help!

Where am I?
I’m stuck in my thoughts.
Help!

When will this end?
I’m tired of always fighting.
Help!

Is anyone out there?
I’m begging to be free.
Help!


I feel like I’m:

Loosing myself
Brewing in self hatred
Swallowing with guilt
Thinking too much
Breaking everything I touch
Talking down to myself
Coping with the pain wrongly
Trying to change myself
Feeling like giving up
Dwelling on my past
Building my walls up higher
Learning to trust no one


God, I’m drowing
Deeper and deeper
Will you release me from this spiral?

My thoughts & emotions
Have taken over
Can you get them back?

God, I need you
And your amazing love
Will you help me?

I’ve lost the will to fight
I feel like giving up
Will you free me from this pain?

God, I need you
To remind me of your presence
Can you show me your love?


With God, I feel like I’m:

Winning back myself
Brewing in His love
Swallowing with ease
Thinking to gain wisdom
Breaking down walls
Talking about the truth
Swearing to never go back
Striving to be better
Feeling His love
Dwelling in His presence
Building friendships
Learning to trust again


Thanks for reading!
I hope this reminded you that you can always call out to God in difficult times,
& He will always listen and help you because:

YOU NEVER HAVE TO DO ANYTHING ALONE!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

She had no idea…


That girl in the picture
Standing there
Smilling through the pain
Just living life

That girl in the picture
She never could’ve
Known or imagined
What was coming

That girl in the picure
Looking at the world
Blind to the future
She had no idea

That girl in the picture
She couldn’t even
Begin to prepare
For this!


Seriously!

How could she know?
How could she prepare?
How could she see?

She didn’t have a map –
Or a to-do list.
She just needed time.


Time is the key
Everything unfolds so quickly

Time to remember & forget
And, process it all

That girl in the picture
Wasn’t ready for this

So, give her time!


Thanks for reading!
I hope this poem inspired you to slow down & give yourself time to take a moment to enjoy life!

Be patient, enjoy life, &
trust His perfect timing!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂


For the original picture: CLICK HERE!
P.S. The featured picture on this post was the inspiration for this poem because when looking at it, I was reminded of who I was in that moment, & I realized how different I used to be.
It reminded me to be kind to myself because we all need time to process through life.

Going Backwards…

When better feels backwards…
Maybe it’s not actually backwards
Maybe you missed something
Maybe it’s actually forward

When better feels backwards…
You’re actually moving forward
You’re always learning something
You’re being changed 

When better feels backwards…
You are being changed 
You are seeing yourself in a new environment
You are moving forward

When better feels backwards…
Remember that “better”
Is all relative
To perspective

When better feels backwards…
Going backwards can make you better
And, see life differently because
Maybe you’re actually moving forward

When better feels backwards…
You’re probably going forward
But, you’re perspective isn’t right
And, you need to take a step back

When better feels backwards… 
Sometimes painful moments are the most purposeful
Sometimes loss is the only way to gain
Because better is relative to purpose

When better feels backwards…
Maybe you’re purpose is changing
Maybe you’re life is about to change
So, embrace the direction

Whether it feels forward or backward…
It’s always better
It will always change you
Because sometimes backwards is forward…


If you’re in a season of life where you feel like you’re not going anywhere, and when you finally move, you feel like you’re going backwards; remember that sometimes you need to take a step back to get a new perspective in order to know how to move forward!

Thanks for reading!

P.S. This post was inspired by:
Do It Again
Haven’t Seen It Yet

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

These scars…

These scars won’t last
They might hurt now
The pain just feels too real
Will they ever go away?

These scars cut deep
They are changing you
You can barely think anymore
Will it ever become normal again?

These scars are opening a new chapter
They could become positive
But, right now, they feel deadly
Will it ever feel good?

These scars have taken something from you
Maybe it’s happiness, or sadness
Or, innocence, or willingness
Or, maybe even your life?

But, even with these scars
You are still here
There’s still time
So, what will you do now?


These scars is a metaphorical poem I wrote during a confusing time in my life.
The scars mentioned (while they could be real scars) represent past mistakes/memories that will never be forgotten, and that are constantly haunting and hurting.”


Thank you for reading to the end!
I hope this poem encourages you to turn your scars into amazing things for your future self
because it’s never too late!

P.S. This poem was also inspired by this song!

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Say cheese!

Just once a day.
Show your teeth.
Or at least, your dimples.
Even if you don’t feel like it.

It doesn’t mean your fake.
It means –
You’re strong enough –
To smile through the pain.

Saying cheese –
Is a sign of strength.
Even if only once a day,
It can really help!

It can make a horrible day –
A little better.
By bringing a little light –
In someones’ darkness.

So, smile at strangers.
They could be going through a lot.
Your smile could save them.
It could be their turning point.

So, just SMILE!


 

Thanks for reading!
I hope this post was a good reminder that a smile can truly change someones’ day (maybe even yours). So, just smile! 🙂

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

A Day in Los Angeles, Chile!

…So, this post is from 5 months ago when I lived in Chile…
I finally decided to share it because it’s from the day I decided to take a spontaneous trip from my “hometown (Quillota)” to the town of Los Angeles.


So, it all started March 9, 2018 at 8pm when I decided to start exploring more of this beautiful country. So, I got up and headed to the bus station in Quillota, where I would take the 2 hour bus ride to Santiago.
I arrived in Santiago at 10pm, and waited to take the 11pm bus to Los Angeles.
That means I arrived in Los Angeles around 5am, and up to this time I had not thought of what I’d do when I arrived that early (I thought I wouldn’t arrive until at least mid-day), but I was still on a high from spontaneously deciding to take this trip, so I didn’t think much about it.

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Bus ticket – Purchased (no turning back now)

. . .

So, I arrived at the Los Angeles bus terminal at 5am, and nothing around was open.
So, I decided to copy the people around me (the 5 other people in the bus station – a family of 3, a women with a lot of bags and suitcases, and a business man).
So, I found a bench in the terminal, put my headphones on, and laid down to take a nap.
But, I wasn’t really tired, so I just listened to my music, and tried to keep myself warm – because at 5am in Chile, the temperature drops down below 10 degrees…It goes from 35 to below 10; which is a pretty drastic difference, and makes one feel the cold (so, I couldn’t fall asleep because I couldn’t stop shivering).

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My view for ~2 hours…

When I saw other buses and people arriving in the terminal, I realized I had been laying on the bench for at least 2 hours, and let me tell you, it wasn’t very comfortable.
As soon as I saw a small glimpse of sunlight through the bus terminal window, I got up and ventured out into town, and searched for breakfast. But, since it was barely 8am, (in Chile grocery stores don’t open until at least 10am), I couldn’t get breakfast for another 2 hours.
So, there I was, in an unknown town with nothing to do but explore, and watch the sun rise (which turned out to be pretty amazing).
And, that’s exactly what I did – I walked from one end of town to the other (it wasn’t a very big town), enjoying this exciting, and spontaneous adventure to Los Angeles, Chile.

. . .

Although, the walk was great, and the sunrise was beautiful, I was still a little cold (I was used to the 35 degree heat), and my feet were starting to hurt (really bad), I continued to explore this town at dawn (the beauty of a new town, this early, helped me forget the cold, and the pain).
So, with nothing open, and being a small town, the streets were very quiet, which felt weird (even in Quillota there’s noise at night), but it was kinda nice and peaceful to experience a small town in another country, this early in the morning.

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The quiet streets of Los Angeles, Chile at 8am.

. . .

After ~2 hours of exploring, just aimlessly walking around, and watching the sunrise (and getting kicked out of a hotel – …see below…), I found the first grocery store to open, and immediately went inside.
But, before even looking for breakfast, I just stood inside realizing how cold I’d actually gotten – being outside in below 10 degree weather since 4am I’d started to adjust.
I eventually started walking down the isles of the grocery store thinking of what I wanted for breakfast… (I had no idea, so, I ended up just buying some staple foods like: bread, manjar, bananas, water, and some Chilean treats…).

But, as I was walking to the elevator to leave, the front desk agents saw me and thought I was being suspicious. So, after they questioned me, I told them I was leaving, and that I just wanted to see the view. But, they still called their manager, which is when I realized I could’ve just asked before I went up (but from what other people said, it seemed like it was ok). After they called their manager, I patiently waited, as to not cause any more trouble, and then they escorted me out (I felt weird in the moment, but at least I got a story out of it from my trip to Los Angeles, Chile when I felt like a little rebel :D).

. . .

With breakfast purchased, I headed back outside.
It was now past 10:30am, so it was warming up with the sun, and people were waking up and going about their day.
As I was standing outside of the grocery store enjoying the warmth of the sun, my feet still screaming in pain, I set out to find a park (or plaza, as they call it in Chile) to sit down and eat my breakfast. And, although I had passed many during my walk this morning, it took me a while to find it again.
I eventually found a beautiful plaza where I finally sat down.
While warming up under the sun and eating breakfast, I just watched people go about their day. It was interesting to just sit there and watch people in this new, small town because for a moment, I forgot I was in Chile. It all just seemed and felt normal.

After I had warmed up and ate breakfast, I connected to the internet (in Chile every town has a plaza with free wifi). I took some pictures of the sunrise and posted them on Instagram, texted my host family to let them know I made it, and texted my family back home to show them where I was.

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My view from the plaza where I ate breakfast!

After finishing breakfast, and checking social media, I ventured out again.
This time I went to find the mall, and coffee.

. . .

A few minutes later, I walked into the mall (it was bigger than you’d expect for a small town), and immediately headed to the food court to find coffee (I was tired from only 3 hours of sleep on the bus).
I got a great cup of coffee and did some more people watching in the mall to see if the plaza was only a similar feeling because I was tired, but this also felt very normal (maybe even more).
By this time it was ~11am, so there were more people around, and more places open, and everything just seemed normal (I barely felt like I was in Chile – until I heard people speaking Spanish…).

Once I finished my coffee, I headed back to the bus terminal because my goal when coming to Los Angeles was to go to Saltos del Laja (the Niagara falls of Chile – that’s how my hostfamily explained it to me), which is 30mins from Los Angeles.
At 13:00, I finally got on the bus to Saltos del Laja (my bucket list item was about to be checked off!).

. . .

30 minutes later, I arrived in Saltos del Laja.
The falls were visible from the highway, but to get to the base of them, I had to climb down a hill. And, I made it to the falls (bucket list item: check).

The falls were incredible, and I couldn’t believe I actually made it!
(the long journey, and little bit of pain & cold were SOOOOO worth it)!
If you’re ever in Chile, I really recommend going to Saltos del Laja!

When I got to the base of the falls, I just sat down staring at the falls eating my last banana from breakfast.
I think I must’ve sat there staring at the falls for a good hour because when I left the falls I was a little damp from the mist coming off them, and a big group of tourists were making their descent to the falls.
After saying “Hi!” to the English speaking tourists (it was nice to hear English :D), I decided it was time to get up, and check out the vendor shops I passed on my way down the hill. (I ended just buying a sticker of the falls, and a Chilean bracelet).

. . .

It was a few minutes past 16:00 when I arrived back in Los Angeles, and since the next bus back to Santiago wasn’t until 18:00, I decided to go explore a little more and buy a / some snacks for the bus ride back.

. . .

That night/morning, I arrived in Santiago SO LATE/EARLY (1am), and the next bus to Quillota didn’t leave until 7am (this is when the spontaneous high started wearing-off…I just wanted to get back now that I checked the falls off my bucket list…I was tired…to say the least).

So, what could I do for ~6 hours, this early in the morning in Santiago?


Yup, you guessed it, I walk around and explored Santiago at night/early morning.
My feet were still in a little pain from Los Angeles walking, but I couldn’t stay at the bus terminal because they were closed, and taxi drivers were insisting on driving me to a hotel (and I think they were raising the price). So, because I didn’t want to pay for a hotel room for less than 6 hours, I told them I would just walk to a hotel (that was my “little white lie” for the day…my bad – But, I just wanted them to stop asking me where I was going…so I left).
Spoiler alert: I didn’t walk to a hotel!
Luckily for me, Santiago is still pretty alive at night, so I wasn’t the only person in the streets (let alone the only traveler / backpacker in the streets). While walking around for a couple of hours enjoying the Santiago nightlife, I only found one corner store open (where I just bought a bottle of water for my night exploring in Santiago), not much else was open. So, guess what I did next… You’ll literally never guess…

. . .

While exploring, and discovering a lot of landmarks in Santiago, I found a Starbucks!
…It wasn’t open, but…
I sat down outside of it, and used the internet for a few hours (at least it’s not as cold in Santiago, so I didn’t freeze sitting there).
And, I was only an hour away from the bus terminal I had to go to, to take the bus to Quillota in a few hours.
So, I sat there (at this Starbucks on a random street in Santiago) for a couple of hours (from ~3am to ~5am) using the internet (checking social media), thinking about the past 24 hour adventure. And, I started writing this story because this was a very crazy, spontaneous, and memorable experience.

If I had planned this trip, Iprobably would’ve stayed at a hotel somewhere, and had a better itinerary with more stops.
But, it was so last minute that I literally just put some stuff in a backpack because I wanted to check the waterfalls off my bucket list once and for all.

Sometimes the best trips are the ones that happen spontaneously.
(And, this is what that was because I will truly never forget this trip!)

Happy ending to this crazy trip:
After using the internet at Starbucks, the sun was starting (just barely) to rise, so I made my way to the bus terminal, and took a bus back to Quillota, and I made it back to my host family’s home at 11am (just in time for a nice, delicious breakfast – which was cereal…but it was the best cereal ever :D).
And, after breakfast, I immediately went to sleep (I was super exhausted from only 3 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours, and sore from all the walking). I slept that entire day, until 20:00 (but it was so worth it!).

It might have been a crazy / unplanned / painful / exhausting / spontaneous trip in the moment, but, I will never forget this trip because it was one of the best, and most eye-opening trips I’ve ever taken (alone).


If you read this until the end; Thank you for reading this long post about my adventure to Los Angeles / Saltos del Laja, Chile!
I hope it inspired you to take a spontaneous trip somewhere new (I recommend doing at least a little bit of planning).

What was one of your craziest adventures? (comment your story below)

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂
(I definitely lived for adventure on this trip!)

Apologies & Promises (A Letter)

*I’m writing this for Mother’s Day, but it can also work for Father’s Day.*
It can pretty much work for any day (i just recently got inspired).

Dear mom / dad (or anyone else),

   I just want to apologize for some things:

I’m sorry for ever letting you down.
I’m sorry for ever doubting you.
I’m sorry for ever being scared.
I’m sorry for ever letting fear & doubt take over.
I’m sorry for all the times I hurt you.
I’m sorry for all the times I failed when you believed in me.
I’m sorry for ever being inconsistent without valid reason.
I’m sorry for ever lying to you.
I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted.
I’m sorry for ever offending you.
I’m sorry for not always trusting you.
I’m sorry for ever giving up on you when things got tough.
I’m sorry for ever yelling at you.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting your love.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting your grace.
I’m sorry for ever tarnishing your faith in me.
I’m sorry for ever breaking your trust.
I’m sorry for ever walking away.
I’m sorry for ever not being good enough.
I’m sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you.
I’m sorry for ever rejecting you.
I’m sorry for not being the best child you could of asked for.
I’m sorry for ever…ything! – I am so sorry for everything!

   Now, I want to promise some things:

I promise to always trust & have faith in you.
I promise to never let you down again.
I promise to face all my fears.
I promise to be more consistent.
I promise to always tell you the truth.
I promise to never take you for granted anymore.
I promise to love you forever without conditions.
I promise to accept your amazing love & grace.
I promise to never walk away again.
I promise to try to be good enough.
I promise to not cause you anymore pain.
I promise to be the best child that I can be.
I promise to all those things from the bottom of my heart.
    One last promise: I promise to try my very best to keep all those promises because I, now, understand your unconditional love for me.

   So, all there is to say now is: Thank You!  
Thank you for always loving me, no matter what. I wouldn’t be who I am today without you. Thank you for never doing to me what I did to you. You are truly amazing. You are my role-model. You make me want to be the best version of myself.


Thanks for reading! 🙂

I hope this letter encouraged you because we all have things to apologize for (to someone), & we should all make more promises that we actually try to keep.
And, we all need to start saying; “Thank You” more often.
-If you can relate to anything above, comment below with the apology, promise or thank you that you would say to your mom or dad (or someone else).

-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

P.S. This letter was originally intended to be: A Prayer to God, but while writing it, I realized that it can work for anyone because apologies, promises, & thank you’s are very underrated in today’s world & we need more of them.

Dear younger me,

          Hey you! I know you think that your life’s not going super great right now, and I wish I could tell you all the mistakes I’ve made, all the mistakes you will make, all the pain you will feel and just everything to help you have a perfect life & be one step ahead.
I would tell you how everything’s going to turn out. I would tell you exactly what to do. I would tell you that your life is never going to be perfect. I would tell you that you are always going to be different. I would tell you how to live your perfect and best life.

I would give you all the answers you want to hear!

But, to be honest, I still don’t have all the answers.
Instead, I’m just going to tell you to never be afraid; just be you and make your life decisions to the best of your abilities and knowledge because that will make you happy and it will create a life you will be proud of. If you make your own decisions, you will create your life and no one else’s and that will make you proud and happy.

There’s nothing I could tell you that will change your life because the decisions you make today will make the future you, YOU.
Life is a series of decisions we make and those decisions impact who we become; decisions are an important part of our life journey. Stop trying to create the perfect life for yourself, just start winging it and making the decisions you think are best for you in this moment.

~Don’t be afraid to make choices because they are what make you unique and create an amazing life for yourself.~

I know that right now, you might think that you need all the answers so you don’t mess up, but let me tell you that whatever happens is not your fault.
Ya, sure it was your decision that led you here, but that doesn’t mean you made a mistake. Every decision you make will help you learn and make you better, which will help you make even better decisions in the future. Don’t let your past mistakes scare you from making great future decisions; you are making the decisions that you believe are right and those decisions will give you the life you deserve and have created for yourself. Don’t let life scare you, just keep living it one day at a time; and I promise, one day you’ll look back and wonder how you got here.
Every decision you make is leading you to a different situation that you don’t know anything about, so you can’t possibly know what to do, but don’t be scared. The unknown future doesn’t have to be scary, it can actually be quite exciting, just don’t stress!

~Your life is not a mistake.~
~The decisions you made to get here were not mistakes!~
~Every decision you make is a step forward, even if it doesn’t feel like it in the moment!~

I know, it might seem scary to have so much control over your life, but if you’re ever in a funk about making decisions, just remember to think about the life you want and deserve, and make your decisions based on that, because you know deep down what you really deserve and what you really want. 

REMEMBER:
You got this!
You can do it!
You are amazing!
Just look how far you’ve come; You’re doing great!

Okay, now that you know you’re doing great, stop looking back at how far you’ve come, it’s good encouragement but, you need to start looking at all the amazing things you have left to accomplish! Start making those amazing decisions!

Sincerely,

Future you, that realizes that her life turned out pretty GREAT!
Thank You for all your hard work and for never giving up! 🙂

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Thanks for reading!

Now it’s your turn: What would YOU tell your younger self?
(write it in the comments or post on your own blog: A Letter to Your Younger Self)


-LiveForAdventure! 🙂

Post inspired by:

A poem/letter…

My first blog post poem! 

Now, I guess I should disclaim that I didn’t technically come up with this poem on my own.
I came across a post this past week where someone was sharing their feelings, and while reading it, I decided to put together some of the words to form an encouraging letter/poem.

It turned out as the following:

Reach for it!

Your just sitting there,
Reading this,
Distracting yourself
From pain of life,
Livin’ here on earth,
With, & like, everyone else.
Finding happiness
In someone else’s life,
Like a moment of joy in your day,
Hoping it will take the pain away
Knowing that,

At least someone you know is having fun.

Well, stop reaching!

Put your hand on your chest.
Yup, that fearless push means your here,
And you’ve always been here.
Your heartbeat means you’re human
&

You are someone’s favorite human.
Someone’s best memory.
A home for someone.
A safe place they come to.
A home where people feel comfortable & happy.

You’re all those things and much more!
Don’t convince yourself to blend in!
Stand out!
Someone out there needs you to so badly!
Your life is not a mistake!
You are so much more than you think!

 

Thanks for reading! I hope this inspired you to stand out & always be yourself! 


-LiveForAdventure! 🙂