So, it’s been a month since I’ve made the commitment to stay in Australia for 2 years, and I’ve already been learning so much! A few weeks ago, I read this book called “With” by Skye Jethani, and felt like it was really relevant for this new season I’m stepping into, so I decided to write a poem about it in hopes to encourage anyone else stepping into a new season of life.
Trust is a process. Finding a place to belong takes time. But when we choose life with God and we start to trust the process of His plan – Bam! – Trust becomes easier!
Battles are not won alone or with anyone, but with God. That’s why we live for His fame and die for our gain; Because we trust that HE knows best. So we ignore the haters and continue to live life with Him!
Living life WITH God is the key to living life to our fullest potential!
Thanks for reading! I hope this inspired you to live life to your fullest potential in this new season with the One who gives you all your gifts & abilities because that’s the way to find true joy in new seasons of life!
Sitting here Thinking Spinning around In this chair At this desk My desk? Writing These words On paper To process life Typing Something random To look busy Doing homework Feeling Weird and confused Asking So many questions About the future God, how did I get here? Waiting For an answer In the meantime I continue To sit here At this desk Learning To be professional
Thanks for reading! That poem was inspired by my current “job” here in Australia. It’s kind of a long story about how I got here, so to keep it short, click this link to learn about what I’m currently doing here. And, click this link to learn more about what I’ve been doing here for the past 7 months!
If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months, check out this post before reading the following story.
Running Chasing Catching Finding Discovering Learning Building Working Crying Smiling Laughing Hiding Hurting Thinking Talking Processing Praying
Popping Breaking Destroying Tearing Shattering
This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles:
You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School), I used to have these bubbles. They were safe places where I could go to hide, where I could go to just feel safe, and where I could go to get away from everything. And, I was content in my own little world surrounded by these bubbles. Or, so I thought…
“Please don’t pop my bubbles!”
I felt content with my bubbles because they gave me a sense of safety. I liked looking at their beauty because they made me feel loved. I enjoyed their peacefulness because they made me feel comforable.
But, these bubbles would also really hurt me. I wouldn’t be able to let people get too close because they would pop them. Letting people get close enough to pop them seemed like a good and productive idea, but it never was because they never knew which bubbles to pop at the right time. They just wanted to pop them all right away before I was ready, which led to me being hurt often.
“Some people have no self-control with bubbles.”
So, during the past 4 months, I’ve been slowly learning that I am the one that gets to decide when I’m ready to pop a bubble. When I know I’m ready to pop a bubble, that’s when I can let others in to help and encourage me in the process. I’ve learned that I can’t just let people get close enough and expect them to not pop any bubbles. So, I need to know when the right time for me is to let people get close enough to avoid being hurt by them choosing which bubbbles to pop in their timing.
“Stop! That’s too much, too fast; slow down please!”
So, I’ve learned that in order to let people get close enough, I need to start popping these bubbles on my own (with help & support) because it’s the only way I will feel ready to pop each bubble. I’ve discovered that only when I’m truly ready to pop a bubble / get rid of something will I feel complete freedom from it.
“It won’t hurt if you’re ready.”
Sometimes I might think I’m not ready, but that’s when I learn how much power fear has in my decisions. Sometimes it takes others to encourage the popping of bubbles.
Freedom won’t be comfortable at first; it takes courage to allow hurt to enter our lives. But, when we start seeing the process of popping bubbles as an exciting and joyful time, we forget about the hurt because we start to see our life in a new, clear way; without the distraction of bubbles.
“Freedom is right in from of you! But, will you choose it?”
Freedom is an interesting concept because they say it’s freely given to you, and you can take it when you want. But, they fail to mention how much it hurts to actually receive it because it costs’ your total comfort. But, that’s when you have to ask yourself:
“Is freedom worth your comfort?”
Well, during the past 4 months, I’ve learned that my answer is definitely YES. I’ve decided that I am fully willing to step out of my comfort zone to gain freedom because it’s so worth it, and at the end of the day I can’t hold onto them forever anyway. I’ve realized that if giving-up my self-made comforts is all I need to do to receive true freedom then, I am willing to pop any bubbles that stop me from receiving this amazing freedom.
And, that’s my story from the past 4 months.
Thanks for reading! I hope this inpsired you to think about the things in your life that could be holding you back from receiving true freedom. If I’ve learned anything during this time, it’s that: TRUE FREEDOM IS WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR COMFORT!
P.S. Check out this page for more stories about my adventures here in Australia! or Follow me on instagram to follow me on my next journey (details to come soon)!
That girl in the picture Standing there Smilling through the pain Just living life
That girl in the picture She never could’ve Known or imagined What was coming
That girl in the picure Looking at the world Blind to the future She had no idea
That girl in the picture She couldn’t even Begin to prepare For this!
How could she know? How could she prepare? How could she see?
She didn’t have a map – Or a to-do list. She just needed time.
Time is the key Everything unfolds so quickly
Time to remember & forget And, process it all
That girl in the picture Wasn’t ready for this
So, give her time!
Thanks for reading! I hope this poem inspired you to slow down & give yourself time to take a moment to enjoy life!
For the original picture: CLICK HERE! P.S. The featured picture on this post was the inspiration for this poem because when looking at it, I was reminded of who I was in that moment, & I realized how different I used to be. It reminded me to be kind to myself because we all need time to process through life.
Here I am! Ready for this new experience! Open to new challenges! I have made room for new lessons! I am here! And, I am ready (bring on 2020)!
I am currently in the process of going to study abroad in Australia. By “in the process” I mean; I’ve already spoken to the school, and sent my tuition deposit. And, I have been approved for a 10 months student visa (2020 in Australia, here I come). So, the only paperwork I have left is to purchase my flight ticket!!!
And, although I’ve already travelled to many foreign countries on my own, something about this process feels different somehow… …I feel like this experience is gonna change a lot more than just my perspective on a new culture. I feel like this experience is gonna change me, and my whole perspective on LIFE! And, for some reason, that makes me kinda nervous. Traveling abroad for leisure on my own to see a new country, and culture has a different feeling than going to study and live in another country. But, I am still very grateful that I’ve already solo traveled abroad because it lowers some of the nerves.
And, although, I’m going to be leaving in about 6 weeks from now, I’m not fully ready to share exactly what I’ll be doing yet.
All I can say is that, it’s gonna be an amazing, life changing experience, and I can’t wait to share all about it!!!
Thanks for reading! I hope you’ll follow along with me on this new, life-changing journey!
Hi! I guess if you read this far; I can give you a hint as to what I’ll be doing: Promo Video
Ever feel overwhelmed about “finding your purpose”?
Well, good news! Your ‘ikigai’ is always evolving!
ikigai: A Japanese concept, that means; “a reason for being”, it is very similar to the French phrase; “Raison d’être”. Everyone has an ikigai. Finding it requires a deep and often lengthy search of self during a long period of trials (storms). But, is it worth?
Well, I can tell you that, none of us know what we want to do our *entire life* (uh, no pressure). We find what fulfills us in small and big moments along the way. You’re working towards something big, at this very moment. Make time for what makes you .
You might not know where anything you do will bring you, but trust me, it will be something great. What do you see after a huge rain storm? -a beautiful, bright and colorful rainbow! 🌈 And, What do you see at the end of that rainbow? -a pot of gold! 💰
-I guess, what I’m trying to say is that after all the trials you face in life you will be rewarded with something great! Just remember; through the trials you will learn great lessons!
Everything you are going through right now won’t lasts forever and it will lead you to something amazing, something you could never imaging! Be patient and embrace where you are now because amazing things are ahead!
Just trust the process! -a wise person told me this 2 years ago, and that’s what I’ve been doing ever since.
Lately, I’ve been doing A LOT of thinking, observing and realizing. If I told you all the things I’ve been thinking, seeing and realizing you’d wonder how I manage to put it all into words (truth is; I can’t).
But, I can tell you that whatever you’re struggling with, it won’t last; whatever you’re worried about now it won’t matter soon. If something is too confusing for you to comprehend, just take a deep breath and move on because God knows what he is doing, he has the map of your life, you just have to follow it.
If you feel like you will never accomplish your dream, don’t give up! I know it’s tempting to give up when something is difficult but how are you going to know when you accomplish your dream if you don’t even know what it is.Through the hard times is when you will know exactly what your dream is, how to get there and why you want it.
Once you understand WHAT your dream is and WHY it’s your dream; you will know exactly HOW to get there!
If you don’t know what your dream is or you feel like you will never make it; just trust the process and follow the map (or plan; whatever word you prefer) that God made for your life. Remember: Maps (The process) will always lead to something great!