2 simple words that changed my entire view of who God is and how He looks at me
2 simple adjectives that flipped my self worth within just a few seconds of fully knowing Him
9 simple letters that broke something in my roots of what I thought I already knew and understood of Him
3 simple syllables that cut deep into my heart and broke everything I used to build my foundation about this Father I”ve heard so much about
Why are these 2 words so difficult for me to comprehend? How can I begin to live my life knowing that I am fully known? What does that even truly mean? Where do I begin this search? When do I start building this new identity?
I’m fully known and loved by You You won’t let go, no matter what I do And it’s not one or the other It’s hard truth and ridiculous grace To be known, fully known, and loved by You I’m fully known and loved by You
Known by Tauren Wells
I guess it’s time I start re-planting my roots and learning what it means to be known and fully loved by the Father
I don’t know where or how to start but I know that if I trust my Father He will teach me and show me the way
So I start with believing these 2 simple words that I am fully seen and truly loved by a Father who will never leave me who always keeps His promises
Although the true meanings of these words are foreign to me I trust in my Father to show me the way to re-rooting myself in His truth over me
To be love, is to be loved by You To be love, is to loved by You So I won’t worry about tomorrow ‘Cause all I wanna do, all I wanna do Is know You
Abide by Kingdom Culture Worship
If you haven’t figured it out yet the 2 words I’m referring to, are : SEEN & LOVED
These words have defined my year so far I’ve heard them spoken over me almost every day And God has been telling me that this is my year of breaking old roots To grow new, stronger ones in His truth
And so I share this poem in order to encourage and allow you to start to understand these truths in your life, and be able to begin to step into them because it truly is the best way to change your life!
NO SELF-HELP BOOK CAN TEACH YOU WHAT GOD CAN SHOW YOU IN 2 WORDS!
Find a mirror Take a selfie Look At your reflection My perfect child My beautiful creation Can’t you see The beauty within
In your eyes It’s so evident Look At your worth Use my eyes Look At your imperfections Through my eyes Look At the beauty That I see
Do you see it Can you see What I see Look I am perfect In your eyes But you still Can’t see it Look At my spirit Thriving within you I’ve made you So beautifully perfect As I wanted
When I Look At you I see Only beauty Immense perfection Total worth And I remember How much I love you
My love For you Comes with No strings attached It will Always remain Even when You don’t see it I will Look At you And See you My beautiful Perfect creation My love For you Comes with No strings attached
Now take a moment Look Find that mirror again Take a different selfie Look At your perfect reflection Through your creators’ eyes Now Do you see it
All your purpose Your endless worth The overwhelming love I give you Look All those things I’ve called you To great things
Do you see it yet? Look When you can’t love yourself I want to show you My amazing love for you For you to start and Look
At your self Through my eyes You will see Just how Worthy Perfect And Beautiful You truly are Look At what I created To do such great things Look At me At others And most importantly Look At yourself Through my eyes
Thanks for reading! I hope this poem inspired you to start looking at yourself & the world around you with the eyes of the creator of the universe!
P.S. The picture above has a pretty deep story behind it that I was going to share in this post, but then I decided to leave this poem as it is, and make another post about the story behind that picture (this is just a sneak peak into that story). Check back next week for the full story behind that picture!
If you don’t know where I’ve been for the past 4 months, check out this post before reading the following story.
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Popping Breaking Destroying Tearing Shattering
This is my story from the past 4 months about how I discovered my true freedom by popping bubbles:
You see, before coming to YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School), I used to have these bubbles. They were safe places where I could go to hide, where I could go to just feel safe, and where I could go to get away from everything. And, I was content in my own little world surrounded by these bubbles. Or, so I thought…
“Please don’t pop my bubbles!”
I felt content with my bubbles because they gave me a sense of safety. I liked looking at their beauty because they made me feel loved. I enjoyed their peacefulness because they made me feel comforable.
But, these bubbles would also really hurt me. I wouldn’t be able to let people get too close because they would pop them. Letting people get close enough to pop them seemed like a good and productive idea, but it never was because they never knew which bubbles to pop at the right time. They just wanted to pop them all right away before I was ready, which led to me being hurt often.
“Some people have no self-control with bubbles.”
So, during the past 4 months, I’ve been slowly learning that I am the one that gets to decide when I’m ready to pop a bubble. When I know I’m ready to pop a bubble, that’s when I can let others in to help and encourage me in the process. I’ve learned that I can’t just let people get close enough and expect them to not pop any bubbles. So, I need to know when the right time for me is to let people get close enough to avoid being hurt by them choosing which bubbbles to pop in their timing.
“Stop! That’s too much, too fast; slow down please!”
So, I’ve learned that in order to let people get close enough, I need to start popping these bubbles on my own (with help & support) because it’s the only way I will feel ready to pop each bubble. I’ve discovered that only when I’m truly ready to pop a bubble / get rid of something will I feel complete freedom from it.
“It won’t hurt if you’re ready.”
Sometimes I might think I’m not ready, but that’s when I learn how much power fear has in my decisions. Sometimes it takes others to encourage the popping of bubbles.
Freedom won’t be comfortable at first; it takes courage to allow hurt to enter our lives. But, when we start seeing the process of popping bubbles as an exciting and joyful time, we forget about the hurt because we start to see our life in a new, clear way; without the distraction of bubbles.
“Freedom is right in from of you! But, will you choose it?”
Freedom is an interesting concept because they say it’s freely given to you, and you can take it when you want. But, they fail to mention how much it hurts to actually receive it because it costs’ your total comfort. But, that’s when you have to ask yourself:
“Is freedom worth your comfort?”
Well, during the past 4 months, I’ve learned that my answer is definitely YES. I’ve decided that I am fully willing to step out of my comfort zone to gain freedom because it’s so worth it, and at the end of the day I can’t hold onto them forever anyway. I’ve realized that if giving-up my self-made comforts is all I need to do to receive true freedom then, I am willing to pop any bubbles that stop me from receiving this amazing freedom.
And, that’s my story from the past 4 months.
Thanks for reading! I hope this inpsired you to think about the things in your life that could be holding you back from receiving true freedom. If I’ve learned anything during this time, it’s that: TRUE FREEDOM IS WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN YOUR COMFORT!
P.S. Check out this page for more stories about my adventures here in Australia! or Follow me on instagram to follow me on my next journey (details to come soon)!
A acceptance authority abundant affection B belonging C character confidence communication D dignity doing E endless F familiar feeling freedom G giving H hope healing heart help I identity intimate J just joy K knowing knowledge L learning M morality N new nice needed O open P peace perfect presence protection provision performance presence powerful Q quiet quality qualifying R respect responsibilities S safety security T taking trust U understanding unconditional V value vulnerable W whole worth X* (comment below if you know a loving word that starts with X) Y* (comment below if you know a loving word that starts with Y) Z* (comment below if you know a loving word that starts with Z)
It’s an alphabet-long process, but when you find your true identity & worth, you will be able to receive & give true love in the best way possible.
You try & try, over & over again, to fit in with the world. You think you’ll be happy when everyone likes you. You just want to feel part of something! All you want is to feel wanted. You want to feel happy & loved.
So, you try & try, over & over again to fit in. You try everything they like. You do what they do. You fall into sin & you act like them. But what happens is not what you hoped for! All your trying to fit in has actually made you feel unworthy of His love. You’ve sinned so much that now you feel too disconnected from Him. And, all of it wasn’t even worth it because you still don’t fit in.
You tried & tried, over & over again, & nothing changed. Things actually got worse. You still don’t fit in, & you slid further away from your goal. All you want now is to erase the past & start fresh. You realize as long as you fear Him, you’ll never fit in. You will always feel guilty, & people will feel awkward around you. You’ll never truly be one of them because you have Him on your side. And, He is always looking after you.
Stop trying & trying, over & over again to fit in. Trust Him, & experience His love & forgiveness. That’s when you will feel true joy. A joy that the world could never offer. He chose you, & He will never give up on you. You are, & you will forever be, His child.
If the world is not where you fit in, just remember that you are part of a greater & better family. So, stop trying to fit in with the world, they have literally nothing to offer. He can offer you so much more than the world ever could!
A country I never imagined I’d actually end up visiting!
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To be honest, Uruguay was a country that was not specifically on my bucket list because I thought it was just another, small south american country, and I didn’t really see the point in visiting it. But, now that I’ve been there, I don’t understand that thought process anymore. Uruguay is beautiful!
Yes, it is an expensive country for tourists. But, you just need to set yourself a budget when you go there. Now, that I’ve been to Uruguay I am adding a bunch of others countries to my bucket list because I now realized that even if a country doesn’t ‘seem’ exciting or interesting, it probably is and will definitely be worth the visit.
My goal is to visit as many countries as possible, so now, if I ever doubt going to a country because I don’t think it’s ‘worth it’, I’ll remember that every country is worth it; to fulfill my goal, and to find something different in each country!
It doesn’t matter if you were a pro at all those things in your home country because everything will be different in a foreign country.
Yes, there will be similarities, and you will learn the differences quickly. But, you will still need to learn the best place to grocery shop, the best method of transportation to get around (bus, subway, taxi), and the currency (so you know when something is overpriced).
And, on top of discovering all those things, you will need to learn a foreign language.
AND, while you are learning ALL that, you also need to deal with homesickness and culture shock (at least for the first few months).
Now, I’m not saying all this to scare you. I personally have been loving my experience living abroad. I’m telling you all this so you know what’s coming: A LOT OF WORK AND DEDICATION! But, it’s 100% worth it.
Yes, there will be ups and downs. There will be days where you won’t want to speak the language (you’ll get tired of needing to train your brain in a foreign language everyday). There will be days where you’ll just want to do nothing. But, those days are the best because they will teach you the most. If you power through those days, you will realize how worth it, it is, to learn to adult/live in a foreign country. It will make it that much easier for your return to your home country. Adulting/living in a foreign country is an amazing, life-changing experience.
It really is LIFE-CHANGING because after you live in a foreign country for more than 2 or 3 months, your view of everything changes. But, the only way to understand this life-changing experience is to live it yourself! So, step out of your comfort zone & live this amazing experience!
Thanks for reading!
I hope this inspired you to step out of your comfort zone and change your perspective!
P.S. I just completed my second months of living abroad in Buenos Aires, Argentina! CHECK OUT THE LINK BELOW TO SEE SOME OF MY ADVENTURES, WHILE LEARNING NEW THINGS AND LIVING A LIFE-CHANGING EXPERIENCE:
YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO AFFORD TO DO EVERYTHING, BUT THAT’S OKAY!
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So, a few days ago, I went out with the expectation of doing a tour of a really tall, historical palace in Buenos Aires, and towards the end of the tour you get to go to the very top to get a full 360 view of the city. I was super excited for this adventure, to learn more history, and honestly, to get a good Instagram picture. But, when I arrived I learned that it was WAY out of my budget, and I really could not afford it (if I wanted to eat that week). So, with a saddened heart, I decided not spend that money (food is more important). But, also because budget traveling is all about planning your adventures, and choosing which ones are worthwhile, and which ones you could live without. And, sure, it wasn’t easy turning down this great adventure, but I quickly realized that I would be able to do and see so much more with that money. Saving that money will actually help me go to another country, so in the long run, it will be worth it because I’ll get to see another country, instead of a view of a city that I can walk around and explore.
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So, that’s my budget travel lesson for you. ~ You won’t be able to afford to do everything that looks fun and exciting, but that’s okay because you’re still be in another country. You can explore and learn about that country by exploring the streets and finding free tours. ~ Free; the budget travelers’ favorite word. Don’t get discouraged when you can’t afford to do something you really want to do. Just remember that you are still experiencing another culture, and that’s pretty amazing! So, just get out there and explore!
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Oh, and by the way, I might not have been able to afford that tour and amazing view, but a few days later, I found a great view of the city for literally 7 times cheaper. So, the real lesson here is to search for all your options.
Thanks for reading! I hope this helped you realize that budget traveling might not be glamorous, but it’s definitely worth it! You can still have an amazing experience and adventure in a foreign country on a budget! Don’t let that stop you from traveling abroad (you’ll learn more traveling on a budget than you would if you could afford all the fancy hotels)!
…So, this post is from 5 months ago when I lived in Chile… I finally decided to share it because it’s from the day I decided to take a spontaneous trip from my “hometown (Quillota)” to the town of Los Angeles.
So, it all started March 9, 2018 at 8pm when I decided to start exploring more of this beautiful country. So, I got up and headed to the bus station in Quillota, where I would take the 2 hour bus ride to Santiago.
I arrived in Santiago at 10pm, and waited to take the 11pm bus to Los Angeles.
That means I arrived in Los Angeles around 5am, and up to this time I had not thought of what I’d do when I arrived that early (I thought I wouldn’t arrive until at least mid-day), but I was still on a high from spontaneously deciding to take this trip, so I didn’t think much about it.
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So, I arrived at the Los Angeles bus terminal at 5am, and nothing around was open.
So, I decided to copy the people around me (the 5 other people in the bus station – a family of 3, a women with a lot of bags and suitcases, and a business man).
So, I found a bench in the terminal, put my headphones on, and laid down to take a nap.
But, I wasn’t really tired, so I just listened to my music, and tried to keep myself warm – because at 5am in Chile, the temperature drops down below 10 degrees…It goes from 35 to below 10; which is a pretty drastic difference, and makes one feel the cold (so, I couldn’t fall asleep because I couldn’t stop shivering).
When I saw other buses and people arriving in the terminal, I realized I had been laying on the bench for at least 2 hours, and let me tell you, it wasn’t very comfortable.
As soon as I saw a small glimpse of sunlight through the bus terminal window, I got up and ventured out into town, and searched for breakfast. But, since it was barely 8am, (in Chile grocery stores don’t open until at least 10am), I couldn’t get breakfast for another 2 hours.
So, there I was, in an unknown town with nothing to do but explore, and watch the sun rise(which turned out to be pretty amazing).
And, that’s exactly what I did – I walked from one end of town to the other (it wasn’t a very big town), enjoying this exciting, and spontaneous adventure to Los Angeles, Chile.
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Although, the walk was great, and the sunrise was beautiful, I was still a little cold (I was used to the 35 degree heat), and my feet were starting to hurt (really bad), I continued to explore this town at dawn (the beauty of a new town, this early, helped me forget the cold, and the pain).
So, with nothing open, and being a small town, the streets were very quiet, which felt weird (even in Quillota there’s noise at night), but it was kinda nice and peaceful to experience a small town in another country, this early in the morning.
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After ~2 hours of exploring, just aimlessly walking around, and watching the sunrise (and getting kicked out of a hotel – …see below…), I found the first grocery store to open, and immediately went inside.
But, before even looking for breakfast, I just stood inside realizing how cold I’d actually gotten – being outside in below 10 degree weather since 4am I’d started to adjust.
I eventually started walking down the isles of the grocery store thinking of what I wanted for breakfast… (I had no idea, so, I ended up just buying some staple foods like: bread, manjar, bananas, water, and some Chilean treats…).
But, as I was walking to the elevator to leave, the front desk agents saw me and thought I was being suspicious. So, after they questioned me, I told them I was leaving, and that I just wanted to see the view. But, they still called their manager, which is when I realized I could’ve just asked before I went up (but from what other people said, it seemed like it was ok). After they called their manager, I patiently waited, as to not cause any more trouble, and then they escorted me out (I felt weird in the moment, but at least I got a story out of it from my trip to Los Angeles, Chile when I felt like a little rebel :D).
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With breakfast purchased, I headed back outside.
It was now past 10:30am, so it was warming up with the sun, and people were waking up and going about their day.
As I was standing outside of the grocery store enjoying the warmth of the sun, my feet still screaming in pain, I set out to find a park (or plaza, as they call it in Chile) to sit down and eat my breakfast. And, although I had passed many during my walk this morning, it took me a while to find it again.
I eventually found a beautiful plaza where I finally sat down.
While warming up under the sun and eating breakfast, I just watched people go about their day. It was interesting to just sit there and watch people in this new, small town because for a moment, I forgot I was in Chile. It all just seemed and felt normal.
After I had warmed up and ate breakfast, I connected to the internet (in Chile every town has a plaza with free wifi). I took some pictures of the sunrise and posted them on Instagram, texted my host family to let them know I made it, and texted my family back home to show them where I was.
After finishing breakfast, and checking social media, I ventured out again.
This time I went to find the mall, and coffee.
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A few minutes later, I walked into the mall (it was bigger than you’d expect for a small town), and immediately headed to the food court to find coffee (I was tired from only 3 hours of sleep on the bus).
I got a great cup of coffee and did some more people watching in the mall to see if the plaza was only a similar feeling because I was tired, but this also felt very normal (maybe even more).
By this time it was ~11am, so there were more people around, and more places open, and everything just seemed normal (I barely felt like I was in Chile – until I heard people speaking Spanish…).
Once I finished my coffee, I headed back to the bus terminal because my goal when coming to Los Angeles was to go to Saltos del Laja (the Niagara falls of Chile – that’s how my hostfamily explained it to me), which is 30mins from Los Angeles.
At 13:00, I finally got on the bus to Saltos del Laja (my bucket list item was about to be checked off!).
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30 minutes later, I arrived in Saltos del Laja.
The falls were visible from the highway, but to get to the base of them, I had to climb down a hill. And, I made it to the falls (bucket list item: check).
The falls were incredible, and I couldn’t believe I actually made it! (the long journey, and little bit of pain & cold were SOOOOO worth it)! If you’re ever in Chile, I really recommend going to Saltos del Laja!
When I got to the base of the falls, I just sat down staring at the falls eating my last banana from breakfast.
I think I must’ve sat there staring at the falls for a good hour because when I left the falls I was a little damp from the mist coming off them, and a big group of tourists were making their descent to the falls.
After saying “Hi!” to the English speaking tourists (it was nice to hear English :D), I decided it was time to get up, and check out the vendor shops I passed on my way down the hill. (I ended just buying a sticker of the falls, and a Chilean bracelet).
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It was a few minutes past 16:00 when I arrived back in Los Angeles, and since the next bus back to Santiago wasn’t until 18:00, I decided to go explore a little more and buy a / some snacks for the bus ride back.
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That night/morning, I arrived in Santiago SO LATE/EARLY (1am), and the next bus to Quillota didn’t leave until 7am (this is when the spontaneous high started wearing-off…I just wanted to get back now that I checked the falls off my bucket list…I was tired…to say the least).
So, what could I do for ~6 hours, this early in the morning in Santiago?
Yup, you guessed it, I walk around and explored Santiago at night/early morning.
My feet were still in a little pain from Los Angeles walking, but I couldn’t stay at the bus terminal because they were closed, and taxi drivers were insisting on driving me to a hotel (and I think they were raising the price). So, because I didn’t want to pay for a hotel room for less than 6 hours, I told them I would just walk to a hotel (that was my “little white lie” for the day…my bad – But, I just wanted them to stop asking me where I was going…so I left). Spoiler alert: I didn’t walk to a hotel!
Luckily for me, Santiago is still pretty alive at night, so I wasn’t the only person in the streets (let alone the only traveler / backpacker in the streets). While walking around for a couple of hours enjoying the Santiago nightlife, I only found one corner store open (where I just bought a bottle of water for my night exploring in Santiago), not much else was open. So, guess what I did next… You’ll literally never guess…
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While exploring, and discovering a lot of landmarks in Santiago, I found a Starbucks!
…It wasn’t open, but…
I sat down outside of it, and used the internet for a few hours (at least it’s not as cold in Santiago, so I didn’t freeze sitting there).
And, I was only an hour away from the bus terminal I had to go to, to take the bus to Quillota in a few hours.
So, I sat there (at this Starbucks on a random street in Santiago) for a couple of hours (from ~3am to ~5am) using the internet (checking social media), thinking about the past 24 hour adventure. And, I started writing this story because this was a very crazy, spontaneous, and memorable experience.
If I had planned this trip, Iprobably would’ve stayed at a hotel somewhere, and had a better itinerary with more stops.
But, it was so last minute that I literally just put some stuff in a backpack because I wanted to check the waterfalls off my bucket list once and for all.
Sometimes the best trips are the ones that happen spontaneously. (And, this is what that was because I will truly never forget this trip!)
Happy ending to this crazy trip:
After using the internet at Starbucks, the sun was starting (just barely) to rise, so I made my way to the bus terminal, and took a bus back to Quillota, and I made it back to my host family’s home at 11am (just in time for a nice, delicious breakfast – which was cereal…but it was the best cereal ever :D).
And, after breakfast, I immediately went to sleep (I was super exhausted from only 3 hours of sleep in the past 24 hours, and sore from all the walking). I slept that entire day, until 20:00 (but it was so worth it!).
It might have been a crazy / unplanned / painful / exhausting / spontaneous trip in the moment, but, I will never forget this trip because it was one of the best, and most eye-opening trips I’ve ever taken (alone).
If you read this until the end; Thank you for reading this long post about my adventure to Los Angeles / Saltos del Laja, Chile!
I hope it inspired you to take a spontaneous trip somewhere new (I recommend doing at least a little bit of planning).
What was one of your craziest adventures? (comment your story below)
-LiveForAdventure! 🙂 (I definitely lived for adventure on this trip!)
So, “stranger danger” can’t really be in my vocabulary anymore.
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Remember when you were young, and your parents told you not to talk to strangers? Well, that comes with a lot of terms and conditions, the biggest one being: Traveling. P.S. I’m not talking about those creepy strangers in white vans (you should definitely fear them), I mean those people that you act shy around because you don’t really know them.
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I mean, seriously, though, it’s crazy how many strangers I’ve spoken to while living here in Chile. And, for me, even just talking to people I know is sometimes difficult, but living here for 3 months has taught me that I don’t have to be so scared because people are just people and they’re not all scary.
I’ve realized that the fear I had about talking to people was stupid; I learned to just talk to people without being scared or fear of being judged.
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When I first got here, I was so nervous to meet my host-family (I thought they would hate me) and I was not at all confident in my Spanish (this didn’t help my nervousness).
But, after living here for 3 months, I’ve started to really get to know my host-family (they’re actually really nice) and I started to let the nerves go and start speaking to them and strangers in Spanish.
And, in doing those things, I’ve started to feel so much more confident when speaking to stranger and I’ve learned so much more Spanish.
At first, I was so scared of being judged for my accent in Spanish that I would barely even speak in a day. But, after a while, I started saying small sentences each day and eventually worked up the courage to start having conversations in Spanish. And, now I can actually say that I can “fluently” speak Spanish (I use fluently loosely because I still stumble with certain words, but for the most part, I can hold a successful conversation).
After getting over my fear of speaking to strangers, I had to get over my fear of being judged for my accent. And, it hasn’t been easy, but definitely worth it because now, I can say that: -I am no longer afraid to speak to strangers. AND -I can officially speak 3 languages (some much better than others, but I can still understand and be understood in all 3).
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So, all this to say that, if you ever fear public speaking (or just speaking to strangers), just remember the cliche sentence:
Nothing good ever comes from your comfort zone,
stepping out is the best decision you will ever make!
And, if you too are trying to learn a new language, here’s my best tip for you:
Learning a completely new language isn’t possible overnight,
it takes a lot of humiliation, work, perseverance and courage.
Those two things might be very difficult and seemingly impossible tasks, but, they are always worth working toward because they could change your life in so many ways.
So, next time you are faced with one of these situations, remember:
Thanks for reading!
I hope this post inspired you to go conquer your dreams!